Step Three: We have to lose things, in order to appreciate them
[Luke’s POV]
As I came to my senses, I woke up, as the dim lights shine through the openings of my eyes, I felt the tears that run from the edge of my eyes flowing to the place of my ears. As it goes nearer, I brushed the tears away, feeling the coldness of that very tear. Looking straight at the ceiling, I felt that the time is slowly passing by, I only heard the ticking of my clock, “tic., toc., tic., toc., tic., toc., tic., toc.,” A faint image appearing in my mind, a long dark-haired maiden wearing a sparkling necklace and also has a smile that makes my heart pump crazily.
As I got up on my bed, I went straight to the bathroom, wanting the sleepy feeling in my body to go away, I splashed the tap water into my face, slowly rubbing my face with my hands. I felt something cold, something hard, and then I looked at it and I saw my ring, the ring that once made me happy, that is engraved with treasured memories, but now only gives me the reason to cry, reminding me of my sin, the pain that I’ve caused, the reason why I replaced the only person that I really loved, Kris.
Nothing to do now, what’s done is done. The feeling of sadness runs through my mind, making me feel drowsy, giving me thoughts of taking a rest, taking a break.
I walked back to my room, making a slow-phased walk. I feel like a drunk man with my head spinning around. And I accidentally bumped a small cabinet beside my bed. Stumbling upon something, I picked it up, I saw the back part of the photo and I saw that something is written.
“Even the world has come to an end, I will still love you til the very end, I will even put my life in danger, just to stay with you forever. – Williams & George”
And then I turned the photo, I saw the picture of me and Kris, so close that our cheeks touched, my arms around her, hugging her like I don’t ever want to lose her, and we smile like we lived in a world full of happiness. Then it came to my mind, I’ve sinned to you and I put our relationship to an end, and now I realized what I’ve done and my mistakes, but I will show you that I have changed and I will make my way up to you, I’ll do anything and show you everything until you accept me again, and this time, I will definitely fight for our relationship till my last breath.
Five o’clock in the afternoon, while praying inside the church, asking for guidance from above, asking for forgiveness for my part, and I pray that Kris may somewhat see it in her heart to forgive and love me again. I’ve decided to go to her house, walking in the street carrying a box of milk chocolates and her favorite Tulips flowers. As I reached her home, I sighted her watering the plants, I came near her, but as soon as she looked at my direction, she suddenly turned her back and started to go inside the house, I was shocked by her actions but I suddenly came to my senses, I’ve shouted her name and said “Kris, please just give me a minute, just please let me talk.” She stopped walking and gave her attention to mine without even turning back.
“Kris, I know I’ve done those miserable mistakes, I know you won’t forgive me for that. I admit that I’m wrong but I never meant to do those things to you or even ruin our precious relationship. Please give me another chance, if you would only just take me to your heart and I will show you the things why we should put back our relationship together and why you should love me again, I’m sorry baby, I really am. Kris, I really love you.”
Kris, without looking back or even saying a word she just recklessly ran towards the house and slammed the door. I know she is angry, but even though she didn’t looked back, I can still feel that sadness in her heart, that tear that almost flowed from her eyes, but it didn’t just because she was pretending to be strong, I feel ashamed of myself, it pains me to see her like that, I just hope with all those bitterness inside, she can still find a special place in her heart to love me back again.
