Beneath Her Darkness: The Alpha's Little Demon / TAEKOOK

Chapter-38 I Don't Think I Can

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TAEHYUNG

“Ready for dinner?” Jungkook  asked as a
Warm smile tugged on his mouth.
“Ready!” I smiled at him after I blinked
Back the tears pooling in my eyes.
“Good, I’m starving. I missed lunch because some little bunny riled me up…”
He teased me as we walked toward the
Dining hall with our hands still clasped
Together, and I just couldn’t help but giggle softly because he was right. We
Didn’t come out of his suite after the
Incident at lunch with Alexa and Alpha
Aeon, and we were just informed about
This dinner when Beta Yoongi mindlinked
Him.
We entered the dining hall in silence, and Jungkook  helped me onto my chair before he
Sat beside me. Soon another older female with blonde hair came in, carrying a bowl
Of vegetable salad. She was so beautiful, and she looked like Alexa.
Her eyes fell on me, and she gave me a warm, motherly smile as she placed the
Bowl on the table. She then walked to
Where I was seated, and I immediately stood up and faced her.
“Oh, Taehyung ! You’re as beautiful as Jungkook  told me you are…” Her arms wrapped
Around my body, and I heard a chair being pushed before I felt Jungkook ’s presence beside
Me.
“This is my grandmother, Crystal. Grand Luna of the pack and where Alexa got her
Blonde hair.”
“And her smart mind,” she added, pointing a finger to her temple, which
Made me smile.
“And stubbornness.” Alpha Aurelius
Added, his voice still as cold as snow.
“Oh, honey, you’re the stubborn one here. I’m sure your son and grandkids.
Would agree.” Luna Crystal added,
Smiling at her mate before she returned her gaze to me. “A pleasure to meet you, Taehyung .”
“The pleasure is mine, Luna Crystal.”
“Momma… Everyone calls me momma.”
I was about to acknowledge her words when someone cleared his throat, and Alpha
Aurelius’ voice came. “I think we should all eat.”
Dinner turned out well most of the time –
Everyone at the table looked genuinely happy for me and Jungkook , except his grandfather,
Who was quiet most of the
Time.
But I tried my best not to let it affect me, although I saw him looking at me from time to
Time. I was listening to Alexa’s story when, all of a sudden, my attention. Was drawn to
The grand Alpha when he asked a question, and I knew it was
Directed at me.
“Did your father talk about Suzanne?”
“Pops!” Jungkook  snapped his head in that direction, and I saw his brows furrowing.
My hand went to his thigh, and I squeezed it, hoping he would calm down.
“I’m just asking a question. Answerable by yes or no.” Alpha Aurelius told him. “No. If they did talk about her, maybe I
Was not around.” I answered in a soft
Voice.
“Of course, my daughter didn’t matter to
Them.”
“But he talked of Alexa. Of how he still
Had no idea where she was, and the last
Time he was home, he said they found
Alexa but she was taken by another pack.”
“Yet, he didn’t do anything to protect her.
“Pops, I’m not sure what your point is.
Taehyung  has nothing to do with what Diego
And Achilles did. I thought we had moved on from this?” Jungkook  was trying to make
His voice calm, but I could see veins
Popping out from his neck. He was trying
To control himself.
“This female here was raised by the
People responsible for Suzanne… So I
Wonder how she was raised.”
Jungkook ’s jaw tightened, and I knew he was
Losing his control already.
“My stepfather is a good father, and I
Want to believe he raised me well.” “Is he?”
“Enough!” Jungkook  slammed his fist on the
Table.
“Jeon Jungkook !” It was Aunt Helena.
I dropped my gaze to my lap
Contemplating my next move. I placed the napkin back on the table, excused myself,
And stood up.
Jungkook  stood up as well and held my arm.
My hand went to his chest as I smiled at him. “I’m okay. I just need to use the
Restroom. I can ask the females there.”
I didn’t wait for his reply as I left the dining room with my head tilted down, not because I
Was an Omega, but because I didn’t want anyone to see the tears that
Threatened to fall.
As soon as I stepped out, I heard voices raised and some movements, but I tried
To tune out the noise and walked further
Than the toilet I was pointed to. Until I reached a balcony.
I opened the sliding door and stepped out, closing the door behind me. I didn’t have my
Coat with me, but I didn’t care at the moment. It was chilly, but my body
Could adjust to the temperature. I just
Wanted a few seconds of silence.
I knew Diego was not perfect. But he had been in my eyes, and it hurt to see him in a
Different light.
Soon, I heard the sliding door open, and
At first, I thought it was Jungkook , but the
Alpha aura was different not as strong as Jungkook ’s.
Strong but
A coat was placed on my back, and I held
It tightly against my body without looking at the person behind me. “Thank
You…”
Soon, the one who gave me the coat
Moved to my side, his hands clutching
The balcony railings, but he didn’t say anything. He was just looking at the view
In front of us.
We stayed in silence for a moment until I couldn’t hold it anymore.
“I’m sorry that my stepfather made
Some terrible mistakes against you. But he had been good to me. So it hurts to hear
Those words… I’m sorry.”
I had no idea what I wanted to point out.
“I’m sorry about the way I acted in there.
Alpha Aurelius said so in a much softer
Tone.
“I understand you, sir.”
“One day you’re going to have a child,
And hopefully you will not make the same
Mistake I did. I know I should move on.
But I can’t help it. If I forgive your stepfather, it will feel like I am also
Forgiving Achilles. I’m sure Diego was aware of Suzanne’s suffering, but he didn’t do anything. If I forgive them, it will feel like I
Am spitting on my daughter’s grave- a grave that held
Nothing of her, no body, no ashes, no
Remnants – because I still don’t know
Where she was buried or burned. This is
The cross I had to bear every day of my life.
He let out a deep sigh as a lone tear fell
From my eyes.
“I’m sorry if I’m lambasting the memory of your stepfather. I understand, we see him
Differently.”
“We both loved the people we lost. We’re both in pain. I’m not going to defend him to
You because I knew what he did. But please let me cherish my memory of him, on how
He acted toward me. He’s not my father, but he loved me like his own. And I don’t want
To tarnish that memory.”
“I would like to believe that he raised you well. I will try my best not to open those
Wounds again for both of us.”
“Thank you, sir…”
“Do you love my grandson?” His question came unexpectedly.
Love? Demons don’t do love. 1
I swallowed the invisible lump in my throat, and from the way my cheek was burning, I
Knew the grand Alpha must be looking at me.
“You couldn’t answer it. Why are you with him then?”
I swallowed again before I opened my
Mouth to speak. “I have never fallen in love, I don’t know what it feels like. My mother
Died before she could tell me
About falling in love. And my father, the real one, I’m sure he had no intention of
Teaching me about it. So I don’t know how to answer your question, sir.”
He didn’t say anything, so I took it as my
Cue to continue.
“But Jungkook , he makes my heart flutter. I like waking up next to him. I hated it when he
Had to be far away from me for days. I’m bothered when he’s upset with
And I don’t like the idea of other
Females taking his attention. I like it
When he smiles, it makes me happy knowing he’s happy.”
I tilted my head to the side and looked at
Him, but he was looking far, straight ahead.
“And I want you to like me because I know how much you mean to him. I really don’t
Know if that’s how love feels, but I
Really like Jungkook , so please don’t ask me to stay away from him because I don’t think
I can.”