Santana Lopez x FemReader

It needs time (S~L)

TW: talk about su!c!de

Santana POV:
"Babe come on, please open the door," i spoke as I knocked on my girlfriends door. Y/n locked herself into her bedroom for almost 2 weeks now. Her parents didn't know what to do, so they called me, and I've been sleeping in their guest room since then. Y/n has a bathroom attached to her bedroom so she never left her room and I always bring food to her door, she only eats a bit of it at puts it back in front of her door but at least she eats something right? 

This whole situation happened because two weeks ago y/n got a call from New york, her best friends mother called to tell her that y/n's longtime best friend laura took her own life. It hit us all pretty hard because we got to know laura, and she was such a sweet soul, but y/n just hit rock bottom. Y/n lived in New York since she was born, but at the age of 14, they moved to ohio because her parents thought that a town not as big as New york would be better. Laura and y/n were best friend since they both started walking and even after y/n moved here the two of them had always contact, they texted and called and facetimed all the time and every chance they had one of them would take a train to visit the other. None of us knows what made her take her own life. The only one who could know something is y/n, but she isn't talking to anyone.

"Baby, please," i knocked again, "please open the door, I just want to be there for you, okay? We can take all the time you need but I don't want you to be alone, so please, open this goddamn door" i pleaded and finally i heard a 'click' sound and the door unlocked but didn't open, so I gave it a gentle push and what I saw in front of me broke my heart completely. "Ohh my baby" i cooed as I saw y/n leaning against her bed, burrying her head between her knees. I quietly closed the door and made my way over to her, "can I touch you y/n?" I asked firmly and received a nod. I sat down beside her and slowly wrapped my arms around her. Suddenly, I felt her body completely leaning into me, "it's okay, i'm here," i cooed as she cried and sobbed her heart out.

After a while, I felt her getting a little heavier, so I looked down, and she fell asleep from exhaustion. Slowly, I lifted her up and layed her down in  bed before getting in myself, I pulled the blanket over us and held y/n close to me as she was sleeping.

I must have fallen asleep because when I opened my eyes, it was dark outside, I looked over to the little alarm clock on the nightstand and saw it was already 8:30pm. I tried to slowly get up to make some food but y/n arm around my waist tightened, "No, please stay" she mumbled and I smiled a little hearing her voice for the first time in 2 weeks. "I'm just going to make some food for you, okay?" I asked, and she shook her head, "I'm not hungry, " she protested, and I accepted it. "Okay, fine, but please talk to me." I pleaded with her and she sat up in bed, exhaling audible as she rubbed her eyes. "What do you want me to say, huh?" She spoke defensive, "Babe," i breathed out choosing my next words wisely, "I know you're hurt and-", "Damn right," she interrupted, "Damn fucking right, I am hurt. Laura was my best friend since i can walk, and now she's gone, just like that, " she snapped her fingers and looked at me.

"I thought that she was okay for now, I knew that she had mental health problems and we worked on them, I helped as much as I could, but obviously it wasn't enough. I-I thought that she is stressed, we haven't talked in a while before it happened but I thought it's 'cause she is stressed because of all these fucking exams, i didn't know that she went into that dark place again..." she spoke as her eyes started to fill with tears. "I just- i wish she would have told me you know or that I would have asked more." she said as a few tears fell down her cheeks, which she was fast to wipe away. "You couldn't have known that y/n." I spoke slowly as I gently wrapped my arms around her, letting her rest her head on my shoulder.

"It's hurts so bad I don't want her to be gone." She cried, and it broke my heart even more, "I know, baby, and I know that you will get through this, we will do it together, I promise." I spoke, stroking her hair. "You're strong, and you will get through this, I know it and will be there along the way, but it needs time, my love."

"Yeah, I know. Thank you for being here, Santana." She smiled at me after lifting her head from my shoulder. "Always." I smiled, kissing her forehead before pulling her into my embrace.

Hey guys, I know this chapter is kind of sad, but I want to say that it's important to have an eye out for the people around you, friends, family, yk? Unfortunately, I know how it feels to lose a friend to suicide and I would not wish anyone to feel this way. Stay safe guys<3
25/03/23
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