Life Support

Chapter 4...

Cameron POV

I knew I'd be in this bed forever, the same white walls, the same pain in my heart. My bones will heal but I'm not certain my heart will.

My mother, friends, and family, have visited me and my mother offered to get me help, she still doesn't understand why I jumped, nobody tends to understand why. I'm not asking anyone to understand why, they don't understand and never will.

Jumping let me know I was actually alive, I wasn't dying. After I found Nash cheating in our own bed, I felt everything inside me break. I couldn't believe the man, that slid a ring on my left hand, made vows and promised to keep them, was the man cheating right here in our bed.. Khloe was home. I took my baby, and left. I found myself at my mothers house.

Asking her if she could watch Khloe. Then before I knew it I found myself on that bridge looking down at my death, but it already felt like I jumped., And here I am, I can't shift in my bed for anything, I can't move.

It hurt me so bad to jerk my hand out of Nash's hand. I'm often alone some nights, and it just kills me more than the jump, I'm stuck with my thoughts...my demons.

I sit there and think for hours, and it kills me. Can't I just be loved? Can I not find someone that will fight for me as hard as I will fight for them? Can I find someone that would support me, through the hell and back? Sickness and in Health?

I will forever now have trust issues, I will never let anyone in, let anyone close, ever again.

I went to bed with the biggest demon of all every night, made love to it, and sacrificed everything for it. And now it's killing me, and I'm letting it.