25/03/2023 12:38 pm 25 March 2023 12:38 pm
Mental health today: tired and low on energy.
Mood: nume and just out of it.
How many hours of sleep last night: about four hours.
How many calories did you eat in one day: 200
Okay so now comment your answers
Now a run down of when all my problems started:
I started out as a normal day untill my parents called me into there room and that's when I was told the news that shattered my word one of my best friends had died that morning due to a blood clot it broke me I can never forget that day it's printed into my brain I was about 6 years old I'm 14 now after that I lost my smile I can't smile everything is fake because I don't want to.
Anyone to worry about me I've been doing this for years so long that I can't stop I just feel like I need to hide away each day it gets harder to keep it in because I've been hiding my inner child for 8 years I never got to grow up at a normal pace I had to grow up fast like any other child that is the oldest they don't get grow up at there own pace they have to perfect get high grades be the perfect child be the parent when the actual parents can't be there I have four younger sisters it's hard I'm suppose to get perfect grades my parents have fricking rules that seem unfair
Rules
1, No dating boyfriend untill 30 (like WTF why 30!!?! 30 is like that age someone would married with atleast 2 kids😀🧐)
2, No tiktok/Instagram/facebook/Snapchat
3,I'm not allowed to text any boys unless my parents approve of them or there my cousin's
4, I can't be friends with certain people because there parents are past drug addicts or they smoke or have been to prison
5, I can only have sleepover at my friends house if it's at her mothers place (most my friends parents are divorced) I'm not allowed near there father's with out my parents watching (like WTF I've known them since kaminari was a little girl) but when there parents where still married it was FINE!!!?? Like what the hell
6,I'm not allowed privacy not my phone, journal/diary, not even my own thoughts.
There I'm done and it's 01:10 am and I'm not going to sleep even though today is Sunday
Thanks for listening be sure to comment if you have had to relate to anything
Love from Riv R. Williams🥰❤️
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mental Journal
Randombasically a journal about my mental health and a way for people to relate to these mental issues/problems as well as for any one who has suffered and or is still suffering from mental/physical abuse and a open place to just vent in the comments
