I've sat here so many times with you on my mind wondering if it was all worth it in the end. you were supposed to be my prize but even that turned out to be a lie. wondering waiting and watching. waiting for my second chance with you and watching every little thing that you do. it's hard to stay away but hey you know what they say....I like the pain. i'm a glutton for punishment and you are my downfall...my personal apple from the forbidden tree. will I bite or will I leave who knows where the wind will blow these days. everything seems so gray without you by me and I don't like to spend these cold nights crying. cause we both know that it will just make you feel bad and give me a head ache. so I say all this time say maybe I'll let go or maybe I'll stay...yeah. I'll stay because I always say that I love the pain
