29th January 2012
Zayn POV
“JADE!” I shout down the phone when she finally answers.
“What Zayn?”
“It’s Perrie,” I say through my tears, unable to get a full sentence out.
“Where are you?” she says, concerned.
“In the ambulance on the way to the hospital,” I manage to say.
“HOSPITAL? What the fuck happened?”
“Just go there,” I say. I can’t explain now. I hang up.
What have I done? What have I done to my baby? I look down at her and see her head still covered with blood, as she is strapped onto a bed. She hasn’t woken up yet and nurses are wiping the blood and doing tests as I clutch onto her hand. I just want to hold her and tell her it is going to be ok. But the nurses won’t tell me anything and I won’t ask.
We arrive at the hospital and the paramedics wheel Perrie’s stretcher out of the ambulance and ran through the hospital corridor and into the emergency surgery room.
“I’m sorry Mr Malik, you’ll have to wait out here,” the nurse says as I try to follow Perrie into the surgery theatre.
“But, she’s my girlfriend,” I say, trying to keep my eyes on Perrie until the door closes on my face.
“Sorry. No one can go in there for surgery. Please wait here,” she says and she walks into the surgery theatre.
I lean back onto the wall and bash the back of my head on the wall before sliding down to the floor and burring my head in my hands.
“Zayn?! Where the fuck is she?” Jade says as she comes running up to me with the other girls and some other X Factor contestants. I point to the surgery room. “What the fuck did you do to her?” Jade screams, grabbing me by the shirt and shaking me roughly.
“I’m sorry,” I say as my tears get more hysterical, “We were in the pool, playing around and I chucked her in, and… and…”
I get up off the floor and Leigh-Anne wraps her arms around me, hugging me tightly. “I’m so so sorry. I didn’t think… I didn’t think she’d get hurt,” I say as Leigh-Anne keeps me tightly in her hug.
She lets go and Marcus places his hand on my shoulder and says, “Zayn do you know what is happening? What have they told you?”
“Nothing. They’ve told me nothing but I couldn’t ask,” I say and I look around for Jade and see her standing away from us in the corridor.
I walk over to her and say, “Jade. I’m so sorry.”
“I don’t want to fucking here it. You’ve done this to her,” she screams, pounding my chest with her fists.
“I know I did and I’m so sorry. I love her as much as you. I wish it didn’t happen as much as you. I’m so so sorry,” I say as I let her hit me. I deserve it.
“You’re sorry? YOU’RE SORRY? That is my best friend in the world. What do you thinks gonna happen Zayn? You banged her head, badly. I swear to got if she has brain damage or if she dies then I’m gonna make sure you do too, because that is my best friend. Why would you do this to me?” she screams at me. She screams, “Why?” over and over again as she thumps my chest before she loses energy and rests her head on my chest.
I wrap my arms around her as I say, “You won’t need to kill me. Don’t worry. If anything happens to her I’ll do it. I know I fucking screwed up and it is the worst thing I’ve ever done and I’ll never forgive myself for hurting her. Never.”
