Longing: a yearning desire
"You...you make me feel things, and I hate it, no I- I hate you " she confessed in frustration.
"I love you too" he admitted with a bright smile.
-when given the chance to move on and start over she finds herself in a cir...
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I assume by the time that you get this letter that the worst has come my way, as I look back now to the past few days, months, hours, hell years most of my only good memories are of you. As much as I hate to admit it I fell in love with you not now, not later on but that fateful day on that bridge 2 years ago when you saved me from myself.
You were my bright light in a world full of darkness, my translucent ocean in a dark cloudy night, my guardian angel saving me from the cold world, you are my everything and I'd be so lost if it weren't for you, truth is I didn't expect to get so attached to you, but I'm so happy that I did because I don't regret it.
I'd repeat all my steps over and over, again and again if that meant that I could be with you, I wouldn't change it for the world to die with you always imprinted on my mind because you are just so perfect.
As a kid I always longed for love weather it was from my parents or friends I needed, desired, yearned for it and it was slowly killing me, ripping me apart from the inside and you, well you came into my life and gave me that love and more saving me from my own heart, although sometimes I wish that this was nothing more then a hazy dream that lasts forever because sadly the lines between the future, past and present are getting blurry and I have to wake up and leave...
I don't want too have to say goodbye, trust me when I know how pathetic it is writing this in a letter but if I were to tell you all of this right now face to face I'd find myself staying with you for eternity, sadly as much as I love that idea fate seems to have a different one .
I know I'm being selfish for what I'm about to say but I don't want to be the typical person writing the letter in the movies when they say don't cry for me because I want you too... I want the idea of me carved so far in your soul that you'd never let me go, I don't want you to move on I want, no need for me to forever be on your mind because you are always on mine and even then that's still not enough, this letter still isn't enough to prove that I care for you endlessly.
So no I don't want to say goodbye nor do I want you to move on or even blame your self because if any thing this is all my doing instead think of this goodbye letter as a see you later because honestly as I write this over and over "goodbye" isn't enough for you it will never be enough. The word constantly bleeds on the page more or less because I don't want to let you go .
See you later Armin, you are and always will be my everything, my bright sun to my dark moon .
You'll forever stay in my dreams and my heart
-y/n
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