High school crush - ||Bachisagi||

Tears & Curses

The scene before my eyes just kept repeating itself over and over like a nightmare; As Bachira stared in disappointment at us and ran away, smashing the door behind him. Even though he was long gone, Rin didn't leave me alone.

That tyrant still had me by his side and wouldn't let me go. My lips were already very bitten, a little bit of blood. He was so rough on me it hurt. But I had enough, as I felt his touch on my body again, I knew I had to go after Bachira immediately.

Even though I know it won't be easy to explain to him what the hell really happened.

"YOU PIECE OF SHIT" I threatened him very angrily and punched him in the face when I finally had the chance. Then I kicked him hard in his balls as he held his face in pain.

Well, I doubled it so he wouldn't leave without bruises.

I didn't even have time to smirk at how happy I was to finally be free. I stayed there for a few more minutes and during that time we were literally beating each other up and yelling at each other.

I'm honestly surprised that no one came after us.

"..You will regret the day you were born, Rin. I hope you remember this for the next time you try something on me again and try to destroy the friendship between me and Bachira. I'm fuckin' warning you.." still angry, I began to rage at him. I had weak vision and body so I couldn't do anything more. Why the hell? Why did this have to happen?

I will probably never get over the fact that my first kiss was from Rin. I will always remember it with disgust.

He was lying on the floor, blood pouring from his nose. As well as around the mouth. I was no longer interested in what was wrong with him, he was breathing, that's what's important. As long as I didn't kill him, I don't have to deal with it.

Now I was running out of the room, my hands totally sloppy and red from the fight. The breathing was not much better, but I had to go after Bachira at all costs. As I ran down the stairs, I wondered where he had run off to. And then it dawned on me that we were playing the game earlier.

Jesus, they'll murder the shit out of me.

I used my fast sonic legs and opened the door to the room where I expected him to be. The worst part is that everyone around him was already cringing and asking what was going on.

He didn't tell them?

"Isagi! Where have you been?" Chigiri walked towards me questioningly, my throat was dry as hell when I noticed Bachira looking back at me. His eyes were red from crying and I could tell he was really mad. When I say mad, I meant it.

"I-I.. I was.. I mean Rin-"

"What about him?" Barou also walked over to me, judging me very much with those eyes. This time the others also joined in and everyone was just waiting for what I would say.

Surprisingly, they didn't ask about my hands and why I look generally beat up. I still had to keep my balance so I wouldn't fall sideways as my ribs hurt. And no, it really wasn't pleasant. It wasn't even pleasant how my throat was like Savanah. From stress and fear, everything fell on me like sand.

"Whatever it is, you better say it so we can work it out" Nagi explained, putting a hand on my shoulder and I just winced in pain. He raised one eyebrow in confusion and was about to ask when Bachira spoke up.

"..Isagi, come with me somewhere more private" his tone did not sound fascinated. I'm not surprised, I had to watch how he even slightly pushes our friends to the side and doesn't look me in the eye at all.

But I saw that sad sight that broke my heart into a million pieces. Bachira took my hand briskly and held me tight. He was cold, I felt no warmth at all. Then dragged me completely away from the room and the building.

I have no idea what time it is or how long we were in there. The night was like any other, clear with stars and beautiful air. It dried the sweat from my face and only made me more depressed as I watched Bachira from behind. His hair was flowing and he smelled of flowers as always.

Will he understand what happened? Will he believe me? I'll cry if not, I don't want to lose him just because that jerk Rin came into our lives!

We stopped at a place where we had been recently. The place where we danced together during the storm to give me a happy memory so I won't be afraid anymore. My stomach dropped as I realized this. He let go of my hand and looked directly into my eyes this time.

"Who the fuck do you think you are?" he spatted at me, clinching his fists. His tears were forming in his eyes.

"B-Bachira, I swear to you on the holy mother that the truth is completely opposite to what you just saw a moment ago-"

"Are you fucking joking?" he cut me off and took a step closer to me. This time he sounded more sad behind every word he said.

"I'm not joking, please just hear me out.. Please.." there was a minute of silence when I begged him to listen to me about what really happened. He was breathing deeper and deeper, I started to fear that something was happening to him. But they were just tears and his trying not to let them flow.

He cried and cried and I too was on the verge of joining him. I slowly reached out to hug him or something but he pushed me hard to the ground and I gasped in pain.

"Whatever it is, I don't want to hear it. I seriously don't want to hear your disgusting details of kissing and touching and god knows what you did in our room"

"But it was not of my will! He was holding me there and fucking sexually harassing me!" I raised my voice at him, this time I told the truth and he completely stopped.

"Rin isn't like that.. He wouldn't do something like that!"

"But. He. Did!"

"HE DIDN'T!"

We looked at each other with hatred. On the other hand, I was very sorry to hear from him clearly that he does not trust me in this.

How do I convince him? This is not good..

"Bachira, I need you to trust me.. Literally that jerk almost raped me there and I'm still shaking with fear plus he wants to separate us.." he looked at me sadly for a few seconds, tears still running down his face to the ground. But now tears were running down my face too, I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't hold it in anymore.

I could only see drops in front of me, a hazy and no longer clear figure of him. I tried to stop it with my hand and rub it on my clothes. I should have taken pieces of tissue, but now I don't have them with me.

"I thought that I liked you, that maybe one day we would be together but.. - " my heart was in chaos when I heard this unexpectedly, but the worst was yet to come.

".. but now I'm not sure.."

Just hearing these words brought me to my knees, more tears streamed down my cheeks and I couldn't look up. Why doesn't he believe me? And why does he prefer to believe the one who is a total jerk?

Answer me, Bachira.

"B-Bachira.."

"Tonight I will sleep with Reo and Nagi, forgive me, but I want to be somewhere else for the last night. J-Just give me some time.."

"I won't let you sleep on the ground, you'll be cold!" I cared and tried to convince him, I want to spend the last night with him. Whether it's our last night or not, I want to be with him. Whether he believes me or not, I will wait and try. I want to be with him.

"I'm sorry"

We didn't say anything that night. Back in our room Rin was gone and no sign of him. I was watching at Bachira who took the important things into his small bag and went away without a word to his friends.

I wanted to say anything, maybe even the stupid "I love you". But is it useful now, when I don't even know what will happen tomorrow and in a week?

No.

I can only wait to see what happens in the next few days. But they certainly won't be the happy ones I feel deep down.