/ song just fits the mood & play it when you are reading - I have put "PLAY NOW" where you need to play :) /
( also I've kinda started using capital letters now bahahah )
"y-you're amber?"
"Well, no, I'm not. I just didn't want to you to know that you were coming to see me."
"okay... and why is that?" I whispered, slightly confused.
he moved closer to me, speaking quietly, "because I thought you were scared of me."
I avoided eye contact with him, picking at my nails. "No, no. I wasn't scared. You were ignoring me, so I ignored you back!"
"Wait, what?" his eyes widened, confusion spreading over his face.
"Yeah, um." I said, turning away. I reached out to open the door, but his hand moved mine out of the way.
"You're not here for nothing, Elise." he said, irritated with my behaviour.
"Then what am I here for? Huh?" I exclaimed, getting annoyed with him too.
"Because this."
Suddenly, his lips met mine, and I pulled away, my heart beating rapidly. Tate looked away awkwardly, obviously regretting it.
"Sorry." He said, rubbing the back of his neck.
"No. Don't be." I kissed him back, putting my arms around his neck. This time, he pulled away, only to smirk, and then we kissed again.
- PLAY NOW -
A scream escaped my lips. I woke up sweaty and clammy, amongst the darkness of the room and on my bed. My chest moved up and down quickly as I regained my breath.
"Hey, elise! are you alright?" I heard Tate whisper.
I tried reacting to his words, but my mouth wouldn't make a sound. The only sound I made was my hysterical breathing.
"Elise, you're alright. It's okay." Tate tried to reassure me, but even his own voice sounded like something was wrong.
"Tate." Was the only word I could manage to gasp out, before his arms hugged my body to his. My breathing decreased almost too quickly, making me feel dizzy. But his arms round me made me feel safe. Warm. Comforted. And for once, I didn't feel lonely.
"Can you hear that?" He whispered into my ear.
I shook my head, as I was only hearing silence.
"The silence. It's lonely." He told me, caressing my arm.
"I'm used to being lonely." I said, looking the only way I could look; across. We were lying down on my bed, his embrace making us face the wall.
"Me too. But I'm scared to get close. And I hate being alone."
"I think you're close to me..."
"You make me feel safe, Elise. You make me feel like I'm living."
As he spoke the last sentence, I almost felt relieved. He made me feel that way too.
"Why are we here?, I mean, in this place?" I sighed.
Tate suddenly got up, making me nearly fall.
"Don't ask me that, Elise."
"What? Why?"
"Just, honestly, just stop fucking asking me stuff like that."
"You know what," I spoke quietly, and once I started speaking, I couldn't stop. The words just tumbled out my mouth, "every day I think about why I'm here, and what I did to deserve it, and why you took a shine to ME out of all people in here. And how every single time I try to get close to you, you flinch like I'm trying to hurt you. Or every time I say something wrong, you act like its the end of the world. I just asked you why we're are here. Not how the universe was made. It's not a hard question. I'm trying to get close to you, like I really am. I want to be with you Tate. But honestly, I don't think I want to anymore."
As the last few words left my mouth, I regretted them immediately.
"Yeah. I think that's better for the both of us."
"No, Tate... That's not what I meant."
"What did you mean then? I know what you meant, Elise. Don't try to fix it. Honestly? I was trying to save you. But you don't want me, or my help, obviously."
"So, this was all you just trying to protect me? You didn't feel something for me?"
He looked away, sighing. "No, Elise, I liked you."
"Yeah, liked. Plural." I spoke sarcastically.
He opened his mouth to speak, but he thought otherwise, and left me in the darkness.
To be honest, I've never felt so alone in my life.
