I need help

Update

Hi so it is the 29th today and I haven't been having a good week cos all last week I was off and I passed out last Thursday and then my parents think that I am faking it when I am not so they made me go in this week and I hadn't been in 10 minutes and someone had ago at me for the jokes I make about my dad and told me I should go jump off a bridge and get a grave next to him and Tuesday was the 4year anniversary of his death.And Tuesday I ended up walking out of first period cos me being me I was thinking about all the things I could have done to make him stay and this girl goes "so you make all theses jokes about him and then get up set to get out of lessons" but I was actually upset and ye I do joke about it to stop me from breaking down in lessons and the only thing I feel I have control of is my feelings so I am going to control them but no one knows me for  I barley know me and she goes and says that like it is just bull shit and then I wouldn't do my work cos like I am an over thinker and that so my teacher is like you need to do you work and was like no it is too loud and too quiet cos I need to being doing something I want to do to stop me thinking about stuff I do not need to be thinking about and the girl that said that thing to me on Monday was like what wrong and I said it has nothing to do with you and and she said it clearly isn't important so I walked out and today in science I walked out cos he puts me next to one of my best mates and expects me not to talk to her and he gave me an after school for the next week I am back and said I had to stay behind and my other best mate came in when everyone was leaving and he was blocking the door so I couldnt leave so I went out of the other door and he kept my mates back when they did nothing so they both walked out it was really funny and ye so funseys anyway I have to go bye 🤪