I need help

First enty 25/10/2023

Hi ppl if you are reading this I didn't scare you off yay anyway hear is the stuff u had to get off my chest and just to let you know I ramble on a lot and I will be using all fake names (a/n I am bi and support other members of the LGBTQ+ if you are gonna put comments against the LGBTQ+ on this storey they will be reported and that cos we don't tolerate that shit also sorry for the bad language)

So let's get into it
I cant. With life. With ppl. I just cant. I kept it in for too long. I haven't cried in months trying to stay strong. Well that changed a few hours ago. When I stubbed my toe and fell over and hurt my side and burst into tears and Ik it sounds like I am weak but I normally laugh abt it but I just couldn't after all I had a shit day all I wanted to do was sit down and chill after hanging out with my friends ( the only 2 ppl who like me at school) but everyone was climbing over me and 4 out of 5 of my sibilings when in my bed climbing and jumping on my legs and I get one of them cos we share a bed but the others I couldn't be bothered with at all and I got barely any sleep cos including me there were 4 children in my bed last night and I only have a double bed which on most night only 2 of us can fit it and one of them kept taking the covers. Anyway when I started crying I started overhung like normal, about life , how many times I nearly gave up but k knew I could never give out there are to many ppl who count on me and if I can't live for myself at least for others I can't put them through the pain that brought me hear and then it hit me like a rock. I am too much like him;bad mental health, drugs/ nik, stupidity, fat, problem causer all of it. I get all this shit for trying to laught about it turn my sadness into jokes but all I get is ppl getting in my business calling me a sick bastard, a scruff and many more bad names which I refuse to repeat that's the vent I have for today I am gonna try and get some sleep night everyone. thanks for reading make sure to share your opinions on my shirt my life❤️❤️ also both chapters are unedited