I get to love you

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One look at you, my whole life falls in line

I prayed for you before I called you mine

Oh, I can't believe it's true, sometimes

Oh, I can't believe it's true

I get to love you, it's the best thing that I'll ever do

I get to love you, it's a promise I'm making to you

Whatever may come, your heart I will choose

Forever I'm yours, forever I do

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It's said children don't hold much memories of their early childhood 

But aryan wanted his cheeku to remember every important moment they've shared since he came into this world 

Picking up a black leather covered diary aryan opens the first page writing down the date

Cheeku,

After 9 months of waiting for you...i finally held you today in my arms. You were so tiny and light...yet the most exclusive piece I've ever seen. You were me..and your amma. Both of us TOGETHER as one. You are magnificent.  The best thing that's happened to me after imlie. I hope I'll be a good baba to you

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2½ months 

Today when i came back from work totally exhausted after having an absolute worst day...looking like a mess. I looked at you in your crib and you SMILED at me. For the first time. Your Amma wasn't as excited because she stays with you always and might have seen it before...but it was the first dor me...took away all my stress. I felt HAPPY and smiled just after seeing  you smile . I hope you smile more often unlike me...

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5 months

Today everyone had gone somewhere leaving us alone.  I read babies can start sitting around that age...so i tried to make you sit supporting your back. And would you believe it? You sat from a whole minute straight! Now shh that's our little secret.  Don't tell your amma, let her enjoy your seconds thinking it was a first .

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9 months

When i came home, i saw you crawling towards me, yes my boy you've started to crawl too. Imlie had been asleep at that time...i don't know why she gets tired so much these days? Do you trouble her a lot during the day? But honestly..after Seeing you even after work..all my tiredness gets washed away. Promise me to always welcome me home by running to me...will you? 

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1 year

My baby boy is a year old?! How fast are you growing up cheeku ? You've started to walk taking support of things around you. I see you are a fast learner and a perfectionist just like me. Also I'm sorry we didn't have a big party for your 1st bday. Your bua said it's to early to throw a party after you. But i promise when you get a bit older, your baba will throw the most grand party..and fill your room with gifts. But this year we dad and son went on a long drive..had some cake too!

I saved some for your amma, we had a fight earlier about a party. She wanted to refuse it...but seeing her favorite flavor she gulped it down in a single bite, can you believe it? With cake smudged all over her face. She's truly a jungli. 

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2 years

You've started talking.  A LOT. And it might get irritating at times, because i can't make out everything you speak...your silence hurts just like your amma's did. Talking about amma, she's joined her college again. It's good that she wants to finish her graduation! This time on your birthday she unfortunately had an assignment to go on from her college.  So we dropped her off, while you kept talking the whole ride. I gave her a muffin too, maybe she'll eat it happily just like she did last year

Let's make this a family ritual.  You and me on drive.  Then making your amma happy with cake !

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3 years

You amma is the worst ! It was your 3rd birthday,  and TODAY of all days she has to bring up our relationship.  She said that we need to work on our relationship again. She wants that. She told me we are growing apart since you came. But can't she see you brought us closer that before? You are a fission of us cheeku. I should have told you this, but i did. Because if by chance you remember...please don't hate your mother.  She's still very young and gets jealous at times. Plus all the stress from her college and you tires her out

I'll might have been too busy in being a good baba, i forgot to be a good husband.  I'll try to work on that for you amma too now. I love her a lot...even a bit more than you. But she doesn't see it maybe...

Anyways, we still did go on our father son drive.  You sat with me, kept on honking too. I swear people  were getting  irritated,  but your laughter mattered to me the most ! 

I brought your amma's favorite sweets this time. Kept it in our room silently.  The box was empty within 2 days. I guess she forgives me?

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4 years

Your amma and I were on a disagreement from a week. I wanted to put you into a good private school but she kept on denying it. I thought she had some better idea in her head like she always has...but she's keeping quiet. No idea what she's planning . But i trust her to pick the best for you cheeku

And now you'll have new friends and teachers around you. You won't forget me right? I'm not just your baba. I was your first teacher...and first friend. I want to be best friends with you cheeku

I promise to be the cool dad and help you with your crushes. And you gotta help me with me, which is your amma ofcourse!

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"Abp, what are you doing?" Imlie asks him while he was busy scribbling in his diary 

"Imlie! Nothing...did you have dinner?" He says shutting the diary close

"Yes i did. I've set the plates, you should go eat too" 

"Are you still angry?About our fight?"

"I tried! But you know I'm bad at staying angry at you, now go and eat" she says ruffling his hair 

Aryan goes out as imlie notices the black leather diary 

She has seen aryan scribbling there occasionally...

She knows she shouldn't open it. Those were his private thoughts. But as She turns away wind blows in ,opening the book

She sees CHEEKU written in bold in the first page

With shaking hands she picks up his journal going through all the pages as tears flow from her eyes

Aryan was writing about his kid- their kid. Their Cheeku

Who had died in her womb before even being born more than 4 years ago

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Read further at your own risk, i won't pay for therapy 😗🤣

But it will be a hea for sure, because I'm a sucker for happy ending 😬🤚🏻

The miscarriage track had so much potential of them healing together rather than stupid separation so here it goes🚶🏻‍♀️

Will update Saturday and Sunday too finishing it

Then write still into you ( it will have some smexy scenes which I'm not in a mood to write right now, so bare with the sadistic me for a while)