Lost Memories [Pantalone x Dottore] Season 2

12.

This chapter contains mention of self harm, drug abuse and so on so if this triggers you in any shape or form please skip this chapter.

Dottore would look at the archon who remains such a composure when saying such a thing, seeing she still kept that smile on her face and sometimes Dottore thinks he is not the only insane one around here. He did not say a word but arriving at the location Dottore walks across the snow covered path besides the woman who has the snow parting ways for her so that her boots would not get wet, so that the rim of her dress would not get wet due to the snow. Upon entering the labratory, Dottore hishome The Doctor keeps the door open for The Tsaritsa. "I will give you one thing and that is that you can be a gentleman" she spoke entering the labratory that is Dottore his home and she moves her finger on a hallway cabinet seeing it is dusty and it is clear that Dottore lives in terrible living conditions but she keeps the smile on her face not seeming disgusted by it at all.

Dottore just looks at her knowing how fake that smile is as it is starting to annoy him. He just walks into a room and sits down in a chair at the end of the table yet the Tsaritsa just looks at him gesturing to the emty spot besides the otherside of the head of the table. Dottore stands up and sits down in that spot while The Tsaritsa sits down at the head of the table. Sitting at the head of the table shows people their power...if you sit on any other seat that is not the head of the table you have lower power then the one sitting at the head of said table. The Tsaritsa is quite clear about this as the only other person sitting at the head of the table is Pierro so Dottore is used to it that somebody is looking down at him. She moves the mask of Dottore across the table sliding it back to him, handing it back.

Dottore sees the mask freeze before him the longer he stares at it yet he would take his mask from the woman and soon enough he sets it aside. "I always did as ordered but forgetting all about my relationship with Pantalone I cannot do that"

"Oh no? Didn't you just have a heartatack because you thought of him hating you? You have this for a while now hm?" She spoke looking at the table seeing there is dust on the table so she glances at the table and then back at Dottore wanting to know where he spends all his time or which room he lives in since everything else seems abandoned "where do you stay?"

"In my bedroom..."

"Splendid" she spoke and stood up and walks straight to Dottore his bedroom. Dottore swiftly stands up and follows her grabbing her wrist when she was about to enter his room "you shouldn't-..." he warned but he pulls his hand away before it can freeze off his body.

The woman is not phased at all opening the door and she enters it seeing syringes lay on the ground probably that he did experiments on himself or that he tried to end it that way. She sees surgical knifes scattered across the room and dried up blood is on the walls, the floor and even the ceiling. She just enters it crushing a syringe beneath her boot and looks around the room some more before she turns to look at Dottore "I will safe you the humiliation of showing me your scars yet I will give you something"

Dottore just stood in the door opening tense since he knows this is bad. Everytime he harms himself, tries to kill himself with a drug hoping he would go to sleep and never wake up again he knows its bad yet he still does it "give me what?"

"A chance to redeem yourself" she spoke walking over to Dottore placing a hand on his shoulder "a purpose"

Dottore has been lacking this purpose for a while now so he would just about except anything so he follows the woman out of the room not wanting her to touch anything she shouldn't touch and cause a explosion for example "first of all clean up this place and treat yourself to something nice, Cut your hair to what you used to have, forget about Pantalone and seek another lover, during dating and whatever all that stuff is about you will be getting a mission. Not to forget stop harming yourself and take good care of yourself."

The doctor listens to the archon following her wherever she is walking in the lab but they end up at the front door knowing she is about to leave and leaving him to his orders. "about Pa-..."

"Hush now...no more thinking of him...do not speak a word to him not even during a meeting. It would be a waste to waste such a pretty face like yours to be sulking for the same lover forever" she spoke and opens the doors "they are all easy tasks...if you cannot do those things then I do not think I will keep you around anymore"

"Keep me? You speak to me like i am a dog..."The Doctor spoke offended since the Tsaritsa acts like he is property

Turning around she grins down at Dottore since she us taller then him but mostly because she is wearing a heel aswell "Like a dog? Well you are loyal to me, you do as I order, you listen to me so yes...you check all of the boxes not to mention you can be vicious and not only bark but you can also bite" she spoke her grin only growing as she bends down to get eye to eye with Dottore "so be a good boy and listen to your owner" she spoke and pats his head before in a gush of wind where snow crosses Dottore his vision she vanished just like that.

Dottore being furious gets this fire lit beneath him as he immitatly goes to action to proof her wrong with that she thinks he cannot do these simply tasks so he cleans, he cuts his hair and makes him look proper again...he makes him look presentable again as it looks like he never changed in the first place. Now to treat himself...how could he do that? Maybe he can go for a walk...or...what use does it have? Dottore never treated himself to anything yet perhaps he should send a warning to the people of Snezhnaya they still should fear him and that he is back to his crual self.
Thus Dottore goes on a killing spree murdering many for no reason at all, painting the streets red and it does feel good to murder so many people, to hear them scream out of fear, to see their blood spray in all kinds of directions. Now that he is killing again he feels some form of relief and he slowly but surely is turning back into the awful old self again.

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The next meeting which is a couple weeks away from the previous one Dottore looks as healthy as ever.
Many are surprised by how much has changed from the slender weak Dottore to what he was a couple of weeks ago to this healthy and stronger looking version of himself...and that in the span of a couple of weeks. Many are pleased he is back to his old self yet many are afraid to what he is up to. "You look better" Sandrone spoke up giving Dottore a smile.

Dottore glances at her and gives her a single nod "thanks to The Tsaritsa she managed to open my eyes and give me a purpose again..."

A purpose again?...Pantalone sits besides him not staring at him yet his words did hurt him...he used to be Dottore his purpose so what does this new purpose mean? Does he have a new love? He had to ask "do you have a lover?" He asks and this is the first time he spoke to Dottore in months and it was such a heavy question for sure.

Dottore knows he should not talk to the other yet he stares at him with a grin on his face "and what if I do?"

"..."

"..."

The whole room falls silent and watches how the tension rises yet when the meeting starts thet seem to forget all about it all except for Pantalone. Part of him still loves The Doctor and part of him still hates him. It is conflicting really yet hearing this he grows upset even though he has no reason to get upset.
Once the meeting was over Pantalone would take Dottore his hand to stop him from walking "lets talk..."

Dottore pries his hand free and continues to walk full ignoring Pantalone who is left standing there. He remains silent and he he seems frozen in place yet he snaps out of it when Pulcinella speaks to him and he outs on this fake smile again to cover up how he truely is feeling.

Sorry this chapter is so short