Abschied || suicide translated

part 6

The holidays are over quickly. I started writing with a girl who gives me courage again. I still have my degree set at the end of the month it will all be over and nobody can stop me anymore. The days pass and school begins. By chance I found out that we go to the same school. Although she is a step below me, a bond develops between us. Then it's April 31st. It is this date that I have chosen for my farewell. The last hours of the day are dragging on, so I'm all the more excited for the evening. Then it's time, it strikes 23:00. I dress quietly and leave the house by bike, I don't need 10 minutes to reach my destination, there it is. This concrete monster looms somberly towards the sky and it's only now that I remember the letter. Crap! i forgot him I had planned everything and then I forget this stupid letter. It doesn't matter, I think it works without it. But then I think about the girl I've been texting for weeks. No, she should learn from me that I'm going. I also pick up my phone and start writing how sorry I am for leaving her behind and how it should never have come to this. Sent. 10 seconds then comes her answer. Or wait it's not an answer she has read it but there is no answer. Apparently I'm not even important to her. Strengthened by this, I now climb the tower. With every step it gets harder as he tried to hold me back. In the meantime, a colder rain has set in and I'm freezing because I'm only wearing a nightgown. After what felt like an eternity, I reached the top of the viewing platform. I look down Was there a light between the trees? No this can not be. I take the long rope out of my backpack which I had bought at the hardware store the day before. I wanted to play it safe so as not to end up like my predecessor. I tied the rope to the railing and then tied it around my neck. Then I climbed onto the parapet that bordered the platform. Suddenly I hear footsteps. Did someone come? I turn and see...