our dark love

chapter 10

Alutha

It's 2am in the morning and the minions are up and I'm struggling to get them back to sleep and it's like they feed of each other's energy because if one is up the other one has to be up,and Bheki and I have to deal with the screaming princess and the other one has to have a temperature instead of crying and to be frank I rather have him screaming than this high temperature and it has been hard since the grannies have gone and I only realise how much they helped because we are struggling and I get only an hour at time to nap then we are back to dealing with them and I also find my self crying with them but DEATH has a way to calm me down and give me the will to push through and especially when it comes to dealing with Akanu's fever she always get it to calm down but the princess is a nightmare I tell you she cries all the time and her father is like putty in her hand because she no longer sleep in the Cort but sleeps on his chest and that mean Akanu has to sleep on my chest.it difficult I tell you because I'm even scared to ask for help and a nanny is out of the question how can I deal with everything that I have dealt with in life even death was nothing but raising my kids be a problem I can't fail at this so I decided to do this parenting thing like a boss and let's not forget the other businesses I have so I'm a mess right but I'm greatful to my brothers for holding the fort for me while I'm still adjusting to being a mom and I really wish mami could stay with me for a while but her boyfriend refused saying how will my husband be free in his house when his mother in law is always around so I guess I'm on my own.

It's 6am and the twins have just settled down and I'm just laying on the bed facing the window and I have no strength to get up and bath or shower they have drained me and it amazes me how Bheki is still has energy. I must have dosed off because when I wake up I find breakfast ready next to me and I note that reads "eat me" and it seems the room is clean and the is a trail of roses leading to the bathroom and I stand to following its trail and the bathroom is turned into a mini spa with bath full of hot water and I see essential bath oils and salts on the mini glass table near the bath and there is a my favourite book the 'art of war' by Sun Tzu and I see a bottle of Chardonnay with a class bouquet of roses and a note and I reach for the note and it reads "my love I know it's been difficult dealing with the three of us day and night and I know you are exhausted and I thought you could use a break and time to yourself so this an off day for you to use a you please mommy and get a little pampering and maybe clean your guns because they too feel neglected so use this time wisely don't worry about us we will be fine and I got you wine because it's been a while since you had some don't worry we have enough milk in storage enjoy your day yours faithfully the love of your life" and right there and then I fall on my knees and break down it's been two full month of stress and even Bheki could see the cracks and I feel drained and it's visible because I look like zombie even bathing is a problem and if it wasn't for him I would sleep without taking a shower he make it his mission to shower with me and put my afro in knots before bed every night so without him I would literally be lost he is my strength and this means the world to me so I start by getting my food because I'm hungry and I take of these dirty pyjamas and I'm not even wearing underwear and I sink in the hot bath and I get the jets going and the salts and oils massage my aching body and I continue with my food that taste wonderful my man is a great cook I tell you and when I'm done I down it with a class of wine reading my book this so nice it been a minute I tell you and I could feel my self sinking into a dark hole but I know death would not let me.

It's been a day of just relaxing and I'm now in the basement catching up on my business and it seems everything is running smoothly under Manuel and the boys and Rafael has Cuba on lock even though I think the boys enjoy south Africa so much but they will have to go check on things that side and Manu did mention seeing himself being a permanent resident here and I know the boys will want to follow him because they never separate. My guns did need a proper cleaning and I got it done and I'm a little unfit I need to get back to the gym soon and my husband did have one room changed into an indoor dance studio and I need to get that started soon because dancing use to be my escape and now I do need an escape.

Bheki:"I see you had a good day you are even glowing" and he startled me because I didn't hear him coming in and I see he is carrying the twins in their baby carriers and they are sleeping soundly I wonder how he did that.

Me:"oh my God you are back and they are sleeping how did you manage that because these are not friends with sleeping"

Bheki:"oh we went home and MAhadebe waba chatha (gave the an enema) and gave them food they say the are hungry and the enema masango adviced it to calm down the fever in the little man and the have been sleeping ever since" Haibo my poor babies have been though hell Imagen having something in your bum they must have screamed their little lungs out I'm just glad I was not there and what does he mean by food.

Me:" Haibo motho was modimo ( child of God)what do you mean when you say food but with the enema I trust them they would hurt them but the doctor did say this people eat from 6months"

Bheki:"well they ate like it was their last meal on earth and they are sleeping now so it worked and I did buy enough and the taught me how to prepare it so don't worry Wena my love these two have been stressing you and that hurts me to see you like that" he says kissing my forehead leaving the basement going upstairs I guess to put them to sleep so I order food from our favourite restaurant and it consists of meat mostly because I live with a carnivor. I go upstairs and he is taking a shower so I prepare the twin's bed in our room and and change into my clean silk pyjamas it's been a while since I put on sexy sleepwear and I think Bheki didn't mind but now I need to take better care of my self because we are still a young couple so a little sexiness is needed. When he comes out he is naked and wet and I find my self staring and he smiles when he catches me "it's all your you know that right" he says coming to me and he pressed himself on me and my breath hitches and my skin grows hives and I'm soaking wet "are you healed yet my love it's been a while now I need you" and I think I lost my mind the first time he spoke because I have my arms around his neck and I'm devouring his lips with my mine he picks me up and I strangle my legs around him and he leaves my lips and trails kisses down my neck leaving marks as he goes down and I'm a moaning mess and he helps me out of the PJ's and I'm just left with the lace panties and he is now layed me on the bed and I'm glad I change the sheets. He is now on navel licking me up with my breast cupped in his hands " mama can I taste their food please" and that get me so wet that I'm flowing and I just give him a nod and he latches on and sucks away and it's embarrassing that immediately he does that the other breast shoots up more milk and that seem to do something to him because he is going crazy with them and that time I'm so embarrassed "Hai babawabo you are finishing my kids food now" and he is still at it " just a little more mama please" and I reach for his now hard member and I massage it in my hands giving it quick strokes and that seems to have worked it helped to bring out of the milk fascination "mama iyohh.....sssssssso good" and I shut him up with a messy kiss and I lead his member inside and I lose it when he ease his way in and I'm a moaning "Mmmmm ahhhhh" and that seem to give him permission to move and it's a bit painful mixed with pleasure and his strokes are long and slow he is in the moment and I have my nails are buried on his back "mama stop that or I'm not going to last" and I squeeze him in a little more and he comes undone "iyooh sizani'bo maaaaa...... robbing me of my happy ending but because my man know how to please a lady and keep her satisfied he on his knees "let me take care of this" he goes in with his tongue..............and I'm in heaven.