Shield Me From My Demons (Book 1 in the Shield Me Series)

Even Good Guys Lie

*Colby's POV*
May 28, 2002 (Colby's 16th birthday)

At 6:30AM my dad opened my bedroom door and yelled, "Colby get up! It's time to get ready for school!"
I groaned and said, "Ok Ok, geez I'm getting up."
When my dad shut my bedroom door and went downstairs I got dressed and I put on a solid black shirt, dark blue skinny jeans, and some black high tops. I finished getting ready, and ran down the stairs. Mom and Dad told me happy birthday, and my mom fixed me my favorite breakfast: ham and cheese omelets. My parents told me they didn't know what to get me so they gave me $200. My brother came downstairs and gave me a black Nike flat bill, and then we went to school.

I couldn't concentrate in school; I haven't been able to sleep for a month, because the secret is eating me alive. I decided I had to tell someone, so I made up my mind I would tell my best friend Cody at lunch.

1:00pm Lunch
I got to lunch early, because I wanted to get through the line as fast as I could so I could talk to Cody. Cody brought his lunch everyday, so I knew he was already at the table. I paid for my hot wings then went to sit down.
"Hey man, happy birthday." Cody said.
I told him thanks, and then I guess I tuned out, because Cody said, "Dude what's wrong with you? Are you even listening to me?"
"Yeah I am," I told him, but I could tell he didn't believe me. I looked at Cody and asked, "You're my best friend right? And I can tell you anything, no matter what."
Cody said, "Yeah man you know that."
I looked at Cody and sighed. Then I said the words before I could stop them. "Cody, I'm bi." The look on Cody's face said it all; I ran out of the lunchroom and into the bathroom trying to figure out what the hell I have just done.

*2 Months Later*
I eat lunch on the other side of the lunchroom now. I was completely alone. Ever since I told Cody I was bi, he has completely ignored me. I tried to talk to him in the hall, but he looked at me and said, "Get the hell away from me, fag."
I almost cried; Cody was the only friend I had and now he hates me. Cody acts like its my fault I'm bi; I tried to tell him everything is the same and that its not like I was attracted to him, but he glared at me and walked away.

I feel like my life is falling apart now; Cody told the whole school my secret so now I'm getting beaten up and bullied. At first I tried to fight back, but then it just got worse so I gave up. I have started cutting my wrist; I feel so helpless. The one thing I have learned from all this is even good guys lie.