*Dean's POV*
"I just don't know who I am anymore." The words came out of my mouth before I could stop them. I heard the desperation in my voice and I cringed. I didn't want the guys asking me anymore questions so I tried to cover it up, and I said, "You know what, just forget about it."
Seth opened his mouth to object, but Roman interrupted him and said, "OK Dean we'll drop it." I looked Seth and Roman. I saw Seth's eyes were full of concern, and Roman's face showed how worried he was. But never the less, they dropped the subject.
I felt bad for treating the guys like shit; it wasn't their fault I had a dream about Seth, and now I'm having some fucked up feelings. I knew I couldn't let this go on for long. I cleared my throat and looked at Roman and Seth and asked, "So what did y'all do while I was gone?"
Seth cracked a small smile, because I knew I was trying to make up for how I was acting. "Not much. We just ate, went the gym, and then came back here."
Roman agreed. Then he added, "The only thing we did besides that was you know worry about your ass."
I looked at Roman then to Seth and said, "I'm sorry. I really am; I didn't mean to worry y'all. I just had to get the hell out of this hotel room and clear my head."
"Come on Dean, you know you can tell us anything. What's bothering you?", Seth asked. Roman nodded his head encouragingly.
I sighed and said, "It's no big deal. I just had a really fucked up dream, so I just had to get out of the hotel and try to clear my head."
"Do you want to tell us the dream?", Roman asked. Seth just sat there patiently and waited for an answer.
"No. I don't," I sighed and said, "I told you what the problem was, so can't we just drop it?"
They both nodded. After a while Seth said, "Hey do y'all want me to order a couple of pizzas?" Roman and I both nodded. I felt relief wash over me, because I thought maybe the guys would actually stop asking about my problem. It's not like they could help me anyway.
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Shield Me From My Demons (Book 1 in the Shield Me Series)
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