REVENGE {Step siblings} BTS FF

chapter 41

Yns POV :

He laid on the bed and I cuddled with him after 1 hour of talking with him to make him feel better he fell asleep...I got up but he was holding on to my arm like a damn koala

'How the fuck is this guy a mafia'

Yn : so cute-
*I mumbled

'What the fuck did I just say , I'm going crazy'

I left the room and I felt like someone was watching me I looked around but saw no-one so I went to my room , took my pills and fell aslee

Suga's POV

I went put of my room to get some water and I saw yn going in Junkook's room so I followed her and she comforted junkook and even cuddled with him , maybe she just hides her soft side
I've seen her so many times and I can't figure out the real her
The more time i live with her the more things i fpund out about her I feel really curious

I feel like hugging her and giving her love but I don't wanna get to comfortable with her either what If she

*Next day (morning)

I woke up and went to the bathroom , I took my clothes off and went into the shower , I turned the shower on , the warm water flowing over my body relaxed me

It was very relaxing , I stared at the water going down into the drain ,
' I wonder how to it feels to have a normal family , I wish I could be young again have a family and live a great life....all I can do is wish '

'Maybe if my real parents (Mr kim) didn't abandon me then maybe I'd be living a peaceful life? Was I not good enough?
I know it was for safety but maybe he lied so I didn't feel bad

I started overyjing and it made me wanna cut myself....

Just one cut?
one cut won't hurt...Will it?
Ofcourse not

I took a blade that was placed by the mirror , I took it and started cutting myself...

One cut turned to two and then to three and then the next second my whole arm was covered in blood and cuts leaving no more cuts for more

I can't stop myself once I start....it feels good
Am I crazy?
A murderer (jackson) raised me what do I expect...

I washed the cuts and turned the shower off , I went out and wore a outfit that would cover my cuts

I got out of my room and went downstairs just to see only jimin and taehyung

Well ofcourse I wasn't gonna talk to them I'm in a bad mood
I'm always in a bad mood , i dont wanna ruin someone elses mood because of me im not worth it so I didn't ask where the others were eventhough I was curious

I had my normal cold face on , I went to the kitchen and made myself a milkshake , chocolate ofcourse!

When I was Done I went to my room and enjoyed my milkshake

I'm not sure why but chocolate always makes me feel better
I drank it while watching a kdrama

'Duty After school' 
it was really short and I finished really quick
I loved the plot but the ending was not what I expected...not that it made me cry or something

Is it normal if I don't cry is it because I'm wierd , maybe because I'm heartless or cruel

After I was done with the kdrama I did some of the company work

Time skip to 7 hours later

I was a little hungry and the dirty glass was still in my room , it made me uncomfortable so I went downstairs and the others were still not here , I was a little curious-  so.....I asked one of my oppas to find out where they were..