Joel Miller and Pedro Pascal Fanfiction (One Shots+Short Chapters)

Can't Afford to Lose You (I Don't Deserve You Part 5)

Pairing: post-outbreak!joel miller x f!reader

Warnings: 18+, smut, loss of virginity, squirting, fluff, protective joel, possessive joel, age gap (reader is in her 20s and Joel is in his 50s) (lmk if i missed any)

Summary: You finally lost your virginity to Joel Miller.

Words count: 1.3k

A/N: This is part 5 for I Don't Deserve You series. Hope you like it!

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The way to your house was just you trying to calm Joel down. You held his hand and moved your thumb up and down.

*closing the door*

"Thank you.. For today." You hung your jacket.

"Which part?" Joel furrowed his brows.

"You taught me how to shoot. Remember?" You had a great day with him but he had already forgotten about it. Joel was too focused on what happened at the bar.

"Oh.." His eyes widened.

"And thank you for what you did at the bar." You added.

"No..I'm sorry for actin' like that." He thought you were ashamed of his possessive actions.

"What? Joel, you didn't do anything wrong. That guy was making me feel uncomfortable and you helped me. You didn't even fight him. I know you were holding yourself from punching him." You chuckled.

"I wanted to kill him." His hands now resting on his hips.

"But you didn't." You cupped his cheeks.

"Baby, I go crazy when those men started starin' at you. I hate their filthy eyes lookin' at you. I hate them disrespecting you that way. And I-I'm scared that..that one day..you'll leave me with a young-"

"Joel, don't. I've told you, Joel. I don't care how much older you are. You're one in a million." You kissed him.

The kiss was getting hotter with tongue included. Arms embracing each other. You started to unbutton Joel's flannel shirt.

"You don't have to do this." He stopped you.

"No, I want this. I want you." You wanted to feel him.

"Okay." He continued kissing you and touching you.

"But wait, I've actually never done this before. I mean.. I've read about it in books and heard from my friends but-" You got shy.

"You don't have to worry about that." He smiled and kissed you.

Joel suddenly raised your leg around his hips, your arms around his neck. Joel's mouth never separated from you, not until you were in your room. When you got in your bedroom, he laid you down on the bed gently and put a pillow under your head. He stopped for a second and looked through your eyes.

"You sure?" He asked you. You nodded.

Both of you helped each other to take off your clothes with kisses in between until you were both naked.

"You're so damn beautiful." He looked at your body.

You chuckled and dragged his head to yours so you could kiss him. His tongue moved around touching yours and you followed him. You had never kissed this passionate before and you liked it. You liked it with Joel.