A Silver Anniversary

Entry# 11

I can't stop thinking about the note that was attached to the body. "Happy Belated Birthday Detective" Now I know this has something to do with me. There's no way it doesn't. Elliot said I was too absorbed in my work. That this wasn't about me. Well now who's in the wrong? Come to think of it, I haven't seen Elliot since the celebration. I don't want to see him anyways. He probably ran away back to California. Never-mind that, he's not important now.

I know this has to do with me, so I decided to see if there was anything in my personal documents. Medical records? No. Resumé? No. Schooling transcript? No. Nothing, absolutely nothing. Great. One thing stuck me as odd; I couldn't find my birth certificate. I haven't even asked about it since mother died. Mother... She knew where it was. I tore apart the whole house trying to find my birth certificate, even checked that rotten attic. Nothing. Why wouldn't she keep it with the rest of my records unless something was up? Then it hit me. My sister took a whole bunch of stuff after my mother died. She must have something I know she does. God, I haven't seen my sister since my niece was born. It's been what? 9 years?

Me and my sister, Melissa, aren't exactly on good terms. Never have been. It's been like that since I was born. I was supposed to be a girl, so when my sisters got a little brother, they weren't happy. I hated it. They always made fun of me. Not in the sibling way more of the "I genuinely hate your guts" way. Things sort of got better as we grew up. Melissa left home and found a husband, but Amber stayed. I thought our relationship was getting better until Amber died. Melissa still thinks I'm the cause of it. Not that I killed her, but she fell victim to my "curse".

Mother never said I was cursed. She said it was just unfortunate timing for me. I miss her. I miss my family. Melissa is the only person I have left, and she wants nothing to do with me. I was 16 when I last saw her. Wasn't even an adult yet. Since Amber was 24 and still living at home, she became my legal guardian. She died shortly after my 18th birthday. Suicide. Didn't even leave a note.

I need to speak to Melissa. Figure out what my mother so desperately tried to hide from me. There's something about my past that I have questions about. Hopefully Melissa gives me some answers.