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« You're gay mister?»
I couldn't see his face because he was pushing me from behind.
« Yea. »
His big hands were too big on my child's back.
« What do you think of that?»

I don't care.

« You're kind »

I was high in the air at that moment, so I raised my voice so he could hear me. As the swing descended I felt my heart feeling light. The feeling of the swing.
I could tell he was laughing.

« You're so funny. »

I smiled a bit at that.

« How's it to be a grown up mister? »

1,2,3 minutes passed... The silence was light as the clouds. He got lost again.

« It's... Hum. Very much. »

His voice cracked a little.

« That's what I thought. »

I went up in the blue again and as I went down I asked :
« Do you have a name?»

I was expecting him to laugh -because he seems to laugh at everything- but no. He answered calmly.

« Yes, I'm Candice.»
« That sounds like candy. »
« Oh, I love candy!»
« does your boyfriend like candy?»
His face confirmed my assumption on the boyfriend.
« He... He does.»
« As much as you?»
« Nah no chance there!»

He laughed for the 5th time and exhaled a « Oh!» like he forgot something.

« How about you?  What are you? »

« I'm lost. »

I can't really justify why I said that. My brain said the first thing that went through it but... I wasn't lying.

He stopped pushing me. And we didn't speak until the swing stopped it's movement.
He came in front of me and got down on his knees. He said :

« We're exactly the same. But you look like you know more than me...»

My 6 years old self was just like that. Still innocent.  I hugged him tight, shedding a few emotionless tears. My heart was light like the feeling I get going down the swing.

That day, the sky was the bluest I ever saw it, the sun the brightest and the clouds the fluffiest. His hand were the most comforting, enveloping mine. His eyes were the most reassuring. And his voice the softest.

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