Hurting Till Love and Healing

Chapter One

If anyone sees these tell them you fell, got it!" my
father said to me as he picked up a bat. I'm used to this by now. "I said, got it!" he screamed at me. "Got it!" I screamed back. He would tell me these horrible things until I started to believe they were true, until I believed I deserved this pain. He would tell me "you are the reason your mother is dead!", "you're worthless!", "no one will ever want you!" At first I didn't believe him, but I don't know what to believe anymore.
     "Maize! Are you deaf? I said stand up!" he was always angry, I don't understand what I did, but I've learned to just do as he says and it won't be as bad. Now that I've graduated from school, I'm always stuck here. I have no money of my own, he told me if I tried to leave he would kill me. "Maizie! Look at me!" I didn't know why but he enjoyed hurting me and looking at the pain in my eyes. I thought I would finally get an escape if I had gotten a boyfriend so that's what I did; I had no idea how wrong I was.
      I got with Blake thinking he would help me but he was just as abusive as my father. There were times they would beat me together. They would hit me with baseball bats and burn me with clothing irons. I've gone numb from the pain. The only thing that really hurts me now is that, my father of all people is the person that conflicts all this pain on me. My only escape was when he forced me to go to the grocery store and I would purposely take a long time, dreading going back to this place.
    "Go get the groceries, you worthless brat!" I'm use to these nicknames by now. I just wish he would have more creativity at times. I'm on the way to the grocery store when I see my favorite park from when I was a child. I decided to sit on the swings for a bit. Then, this man sits next to me. He stares at me with puzzling eyes. I wonder what he's thinking and I can't help but shift under his gaze. I've learned not to trust men, since the one man that's supposed to protect me, hurts me every single day without fail.
     I never spoke to anyone other than my father and Blake, even though I had broken up with Blake, he was always around having fun hurting me with my father. There was something different about this gorgeous figure beside me. He looked at me with tender worry. He then spoke. His voice was angelic as he spoke. "Are you alright?" He asked me. I didn't know how to answer because I never spoke. I just started crying and he looked even more worried. I quickly got up and ran away from him, not wanting him to ask anything else.
      As I am running I notice someone walking towards me. I look further into the distance and realize it's my father. Not wanting him to catch up to me in the open, I am continuing to run as fast as I can until I reach the road in front of my house. I ran across and this is when my life was changed forever. As he walked across the road he's hit by a truck going ninety miles an hour; I wasn't sure what to do. The truck stopped and a woman got out. At this point she is saying all these apologies I don't understand. She calls 911, even though he was dead on impact. I didn't know whether to be terrified for what would happen to me now or to be thankful that he can't hurt me anymore.
     "Ma'am are you hurt?" the police officer asked me, which happens to be my sister's husband. My sister was adopted by our aunt when we were little. I decided that I should probably bring myself to talk. "No, not from this accident, '' I replied. "What do you mean not from this accident?" He didn't know about how abusive my father was. "Well... umm... uhh..." it's then that another person gets out of the car.

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This story is very fast paced I know!! But while I was writing it I was so excited to get to the point! Also I apologize if it's not that great I'm only 14 but I like to write. I hope you guys enjoy my book!!