Hurting Till Love and Healing

Chapter Four

We're sitting in his living room on opposite ends of the couch and I can't help but wish he wasn't so far away from me. I curl up into a ball on my end trying to keep warm but shivering just a bit. I guess he noticed because he then speaks. "Are you okay, beautiful?" "Ye-yeah I'm okay. J-just a li-little cold." He then scoots across the couch in an instant and wraps me in his warm embrace. I look up at him and smile. He makes me feel so safe without even trying. He's so sweet but I can't help but think back to the things my father would say to me. "You're worthless!" "Stop crying! No one wants to save you!" "No one will ever love you!" I can't help but wonder for a moment was he right? I don't believe those words anymore.
After everything Cody has done for me I think he really does care. After all, if I was so worthless, why would he spend all this time on me. But sometimes I can't help but look in the mirror and hate what's staring back at me. Why was he wasting his time on a nobody like me? Was he truly falling in love with me as he claims? I don't know what to believe.
"Maizie?" "Ye-yes?" "What are you thinking about in that beautiful mind of yours?" "Oh, don't worry about it. It's not important." "Maizie, I can tell something's bothering you. You can talk to me, you know that." "I was just thinking about the things my father would say to me." I wasn't sure what he thought about that answer. Would he be angry? Would he be worried? Would he even care? "What kind of things?" He asked me. I was taken aback by his words. I didn't know if I should tell him or not. I decided to be open and honest. "He would tell me I'm worthless and that no one would ever love me...." At that moment he tilts my chin to look at him and wipes a tear from my cheek making me realize I was crying.
"Maizie, baby, you are not worthless. You are worth everything to me. And I love you and everyone in my family will love you, if they ever get to meet you that is." "Th-thank you." I said with a small smile. *ding, dong* "I'll get that, you stay here just in case." "O-okay." I hear muffled joyful talking in the background. "Gracie! What are you doing here?" "I came to meet this amazing girl you keep texting me about!" I can't hold back the smile forming on my face as I get up and walk to the door; he talks about me? "H-hi, I'm Maizie." "Omg! You're just as gorgeous as Cody said you were! With your beautiful long blonde hair and green eyes!" I can't help but giggle at her words and Cody's reaction to them. "Gracie!" He yells at her accusingly. "Maizie, baby, this is Gracie, my little sister." "I-it's nice to meet you Gracie." "It's kind of late, why don't we all head to bed and catch up in the morning." Cody says in a sleepy yawned filled voice. "I agree I'm pretty tired." I said after him. We all walk up the stairs and after Gracie goes into her room, Cody and I stop outside our doors. I look at him with a worried expression, but I push that away and force a smile. He doesn't fall for it and questions me. "Do you want to sleep in my room again?" I nod my head slowly and he smiles. He walks up to me and grabs my hand walking me to his room.
He gives me one of his t-shirts to change into while he goes to the bathroom and brushes his teeth. After he comes back to the room I go and wash my face realizing I still don't have a tooth brush. When I walk back to the room he's already laying in the bed and almost asleep. I can't help the smile that forms on my face. "Don't you look peaceful." I say playfully. "Well it would be even more peaceful if you were cuddling with me right now." "Would it now?" I ask sarcastically before I climb onto the gigantic bed. I curl up next to him not touching him until he rolls onto his side and wraps his arms around me. I smile at the gesture and he replies by kissing me on the back of my head then nuzzling his head into my neck.
When I wake up he is still sound asleep. I decide not to move and just take in this beautiful figure that I'm oh so close to. I woke up with my head on his chest and his arm around my waist. I look up at his sweet smile realizing he's awake. "Good morning, beautiful." He says with an even larger smile. "Good morning." I say with a yawn. He laughs quietly and just watches as I struggle to get up because of his strong grip on my waist. "Are you just going to hold me here all day?" I ask sarcastically. "Oh great idea! You know you look super cute when you sleep on my chest." "You know you look super cute when you're faking sleeping just so I don't catch you drooling over me." "Who said it was you I was drooling over? It could be the smell of my sister making bacon downstairs!" "BACON! Let me go, I need food!"
My sheepish attempt to get out of his grasp only failed. He looked at me with his cheeky smirk. "Come on! Cody! We can cuddle more later! My bacon is in the line!" "Okay, okay, I'll let you go but I'm holding you to your word." "Whatever! It's not like we wouldn't cuddle anyway." I say sweetly, happy to know he's not going to forget.