Hurting Till Love and Healing

Chapter Six

   "Maizie!" "Yes Cody?!" "Come in here!" "Just a second!" It's been a few days since we made it official but it's been amazing. "Hey, babe, I need to tell you something." He sounds slightly worried and excited. "What's up?" I walk up to him and throw my arms around him. One of his arms finds my waist, the other makes its way to my chin to make me face him. I set my chin on his chest as he speaks. "They got him, they got Blake. He's going to be put in jail."
     I stand in front of my boyfriend in shock not knowing what to say. "R-really?" At this moment I start crying, overwhelmed, joyous, shocked, hurt, angry. Angry at myself that I ever got into contact with Blake but joyous that I did because I don't think I would've met Cody if I hadn't had such a rough past. "Oh, come here, baby don't cry. I hate seeing you cry." "I-I'm sorry." "No. No! Don't be sorry." I'm angry; angry that I put this burden onto him, angry that I ever let my problem even happen. I've worked so hard the past few months to work up my confidence but it's crumbling; I'm relapsing.
      "Baby, look at me." He's calm, he speaks with such gentle care. "Love what's wrong? I can tell these aren't happy tears and I certainly know you aren't upset about Blake being put in jail." "I-I feel like a burden. I don't want you to be wasting your time on me. I want you to be able to live your life to the fullest and not be set back by someone in the mental state I am in. I can't burden you anymore. I have to leave. I-I'm s-so-sorry I ever brought y-you into t-this." I stammer over my words like an idiot but I don't hesitate to turn away from him and leave while he's still frozen in shock. "Baby! Wait! Please don't leave. You aren't a burden! I love you! I'm always going to love you! You're only hurting me by doing this! Maizie!" I ignore him as I walk out the door and down the driveway.
       I walk all the way to my sister's house hoping she will let me stay there. *ding,dong* The door opens and I automatically start crying. "M-Maizie? What's wrong?" "E-mma I couldn't do it anymore." "Maizie, you didn't." She starts to sound worried and I can't help but break even more. "I told him I didn't want to burden him anymore and then I left and came here." "Come on let's get you to bed. We'll talk more tomorrow.
Cody's POV
*ringggggg* I hear my phone and look to see who it is. I've been pacing my house panicking for the past hour; since Maizie left. I didn't know exactly where she would go and then when I picked up the phone I knew where she was. "E-Emma? Please tell me she's with you!" "She's safe, Cody , calm down. Can you tell me why she showed up here in the first place?" "Well, they arrested Blake and when I told her a flip switched inside of her and when I asked her what was wrong she burst. She went on about how she didn't want to burden me. She didn't want to hold me back. She wanted me to live life to the fullest without someone with a mental state like hers. Emma I don't want anyone else I want her!" "Give me a minute Cody, I'll call you back."
Maizie's POV
I hear a knock on the door. "Maizie? Look, please don't do this to him and yourself." "'Em-Emma I have to, I don't deserve him, he doesn't need me." "Maizie you don't understand. He loves you. He truly loves you. Please just come out." At this point I haven't left this room in four days knowing I'm only going to fall apart. I'm not sure how long it will take me to get out of this bed. He's called Emma hundreds of times checking on me, trying to get me to open up but I know this is for the best. He deserves a world without me.