Grayson Dolans Girlfriend

Chapter 8

Lily's P.O.V

"Okay, so it all started when I was very little. It was the first day of kindergarten and I was nervous. Believe it or not I'm not good in new situations, I'm not good with meeting new people and keeping up an interesting conversation. I'm not good at that now, imagine five year old me.
Anyway, the teacher let us in, I remember nearly having to be dragged away from my mom. A little brown haired girl with green eyes came up to me, smiling the brightest smile I've ever seen. She gave me a hug and told me that I could play with her. From that moment we never left each others sides. We were best friends, we did everything together, we told each other everything and we were ourselves around each other.
She was someone I could actually trust. She was kind, funny... she was a genuine person and I loved it.
One day she was round my house and she got a call from her parents telling her she needed to go home for some important news, I went with her. They said that they were all moving away, five hours away to be exact. I was torn. My best friend was moving away and I had no one else because I didn't open up to people.
The day she left was when that photo was taken (photo of two girls attached). After we'd hugged it out she got in her car and I had to watch them- I had to watch them drive away.
A few days went by and my parents were acting suspicious, so was my brother... I was already upset because Rachel hadn't been replying to any of my social medias, messages or phone calls.
I plucked up the courage to ask my mom what was wrong. I told her about Rachel not replying to me and that's when she told me.
She told me that my best friend and her family got in a car crash. I was shocked at first, I thought they were lying to me so I blocked them all out. I didn't talk to anyone. But that's when realisation hit me like a truck-probably the wrong time to say that.
I cried and cried, I don't think I stopped. I didn't eat, I didn't sleep in fact, I barley exited my room. The only time I did was when my mom forced me to see a councillor.
I was very, extremely depressed. I did everything to myself. I tried to commit-" he gasped a little "I thought it would bring her back, that we'd be together again but Tyler walked in. That's why we're so close. He swore to never tell my parents. He made me realise how it would be been worse if I killed myself, how I need to stay strong for Rachel's sake.
I posted a picture-this picture on Instagram, Twitter, every social media there is with a big paragraph about how much I love her and how missed she'd be, that's when people started to think of me as a 'Tumblr girl'.
That's when I got so many followers. Everyone at school wanted to be my friend. I guess it was out of sympathy but I really didn't and still don't care. I became good friends with Madison. I say she's my best friend because Rachel was my sister. No one could ever compare to her.
Madison is amazing. We have a lot in common, in fact her and Rachel are almost the same person apart from Rachel's innocent personality. She was always calm and she didn't like going to parties. She kept herself to herself.
Maddie is crazy, she's a total party animal. That's why I'm kinda like that I guess. My parents never talk about Rachel around me and I guess that made it worse.
So yeah... That's Rachel. My dead best friend." I started crying again. He pulled me to lay on top of him.

"Don't cry... You've been so brave and I'm so proud of you for being so strong. I'll always be here, okay? You can't get rid of me that easily" he kissed my forehead.

"It hurt so bad, when they told me... I didn't know how I would carry on. I still don't know how I carry on" I sobbed into his neck.

He rubbed my back. "I don't know how you carried on then but now you're going to carry on for me. Rachel seems like a lovely person, a true friend so you have to be a good friend to her and let her look down on you. Show her that you're doing well for yourself, that you have the worlds hottest boyfriend" he tried to lighten the mood.

"I love you Grayson, I love you so, so much." I pecked his neck quickly, wiping my tears on my sleeve again.

I got up, walking to the drawers. I got out my pyjamas. The shorts felt really tight but the top felt baggy. My mom must've washed the shorts before I left, as long as everything else obviously, not just on their own, randomly.

I took all my clothes off, including underwear, putting the pyjamas on. Yup, I was right. The shorts are literally underwear.

"You had to ruin it by putting clothes on" Grayson grunted. I don't think I was supposed to hear that. I turned around to see him staring at me.

"Take a picture it'll might last longer" I smirked.

"A picture won't capture how beautiful you are" he got up, taking his clothes off, apart from his boxers.

"Cheesy one, aren't you" I laughed, walking over to him.

I put my arms around his neck, touching my nose to his. He kissed my lips, soon turning it into a make out session. I smiled into the kiss. No matter how sad I am. He manages to cheer me up.

My feet were off the ground as he was so much taller than me. He laid down on the bed, me completely on top of him. He put his hand on my butt, I broke away from the kiss and he was smirking at me, I smirked back. I put my hand on his toned stomach, kissing him again.

I rolled over, laying next to him on the bed. He pulled me close, I put my head on his chest. Being in his arms made me feel safe. I don't think I've felt this safe in a long time.

"I could get used to this" he kissed my forehead.