I think of you
In the dark hours,
When silence
Crushes
And loneliness
Is relentless.
I wonder why you were
So cruel
Or why, perhaps, I acted like
Such a fool.
An all consuming
flame,
Drove me mad,
Made me feel insane
For loving so hard,
So fast,
So in vain.
Irrationally, blindly,
I ruined us
Without thinking.
I couldn't.
My heart wouldn't let me,
Not even to breathe.
And God I was willing
To give everything,
To burn.
If only you would
Collect the ashes,
Carry them with you
Or stow them away.
At least remembering,
Once in a while
That I burned for you,
Only for you.
Instead you watched
Me burn to nothing
From a distance
Crushing my heart to dust
With the smile of an angel
My angel, My love, My saviour
You were
My everything,
My every thought,
My every action.
My every waking moment,
Was only for you
Now, I can only think of you
In the dark hours
When loneliness crushes
And silence is unmoving.
When mind remembers
And heart yearns.
When rational thought
Abandons
And pain lingers.
The wheels of time turn
And you move further and
Further from me.
A bittersweet memory
Of a boundless, obsessive
Love
That burned so hot
It melted my bones,
Choked my soul
And left me in ashes.
