Take Me/Far Away

Part 1

It was a stalemate now
One sided
Holding the bridge together.

"But barely did it hold together.."

It burned
& the only place to sanctuary was closed
& the sweet summer light calms me
Gentle. Welcoming.

I could smell it in your eyes.
More words wanted to come of you.
Run me back. Don't let it bloom yet.

"Why not? It's ready."

No.
Not yet.
The heat wasn't warm enough.
It was still cold on the inside. Tampered with. Abandoned.

But the calm nights is what made you, you.
Back in the garden shed, where you hid.
It's where I hid deeply.

The love I was in.
The roses stopped growing.
And the cherry blossoms bloomed.
Sensitive like glass in the heat, and I was on Saturn by the time you saw the note.

Long gone from this earth.
So don't kill the rose, before it even blooms.
Trap it's beauty. Admire it like I did to you.
Because what more was I made for?

"You were born from pain."

Not love.
Not peace.
You could never see.
All my friends were lost, and I never spoke one word. And they never showed.
They knew the routine.
But I was over it.

Just as the night was.
Calm & young.
& deep within my mind you remind me,
that it does not fucking matter.

It was just human nature after all.

/

Lovers quarrel;

It costed. Taking the world off upon the shoulders. It shines right through. As the life faded from their eyes, I ask.

"Why make her so perfect?"

It doesn't mean a thing. But even as the question went about, it was brushed aside. Taken by the shoulders and made to look. As her beauty sprouted about. I fell. Constantly finding myself there or here. I was everywhere about you.

Seeing you in my dreams.
I loved you there, as I do now.
It was mutual.

Writing of the same eyes that took me. Took my glory and laugh along with her. A calm and gorgeous heart. Maybe someday, you'll find it. She'll find the answers to it all.

So as the winters eat you up.
Think of me.
Don't let me fade.
Loneliness is at play.
The pink season has come.
Remember?

And even as we pass time.
Let it be.

It's the last glimpse I've seen,
I cant dream anymore.

But truly, my final words are at play.
I saw it all in your dark eyes.
They're beautiful.

But always remember..
The world is yours.

/

But maybe in ways I don't know how to describe it. Yeah, the feeling.

Sometimes I sit there. Thinking. Thinking.
It stops.

Her smiles all I see.
As her eyes squint with it too.
And if I could define beauty, it'd be you.
Perfect. In every minuet detail, you were
left flawless.

But even then, the very gods took you from me. Telling me that their champion could not be touched. Not by the hands of sin.

But I wondered.
Even as I admired you, my soul was taken.
I wondered, how?

How could a being be so beautiful. A paradise in bliss. And my mind never decided for me. My heart did. But time took it's toll. And we would stop seeing each other for a bit.

The smiles never faded. But it was love from a distance. Remaining there. Unscathed by the terrors of the night. And as I wandered about, my mind became full. Drowning me in its darkest pits. Reminding me that my heart was lost beyond my mind.

I chose to hide it. I chose to hide me.
And without the gardens, I couldn't lead.
But the moon rose, lightly. A light blue moon.
As her soul lights up.

Oh how I adored you.
& that soul you presented to me,
it was like a million gifts wrapped in one,
and out of all of them, you were
the best one.

And even if I lost my life. I'd rather you blame
me. Don't blame yourself, ever. I'd die for her.
As my old friend sat by me. Laughing away at the idea of love.

He tells me.

"Your soul speaks for you. As does your heart. She loved you forever. But you loved her for far longer, haven't you?."

"Yeah...I have. But forever? Has it been that long? Truly?"

"Yes. It has boy. Go ahead, run along and catch up with her. She's waiting for you on the other side. Unless, you've already beaten her there."

"Indeed I have old friend. Indeed I have."

The sheer rush. An emotion so divine that even now it burns in me. I never minded your presence. Or those beautiful words she spoke.

Deep down.
With every passing second.
All I've ever desired,

was you.

/

I feel like i'm the same thing as you, it's like looking in a mirror,

And even then you bloom from pain
The ivy grew longer
& you wished me godspeed,
granting me access at last

What isn't given, is taken
& I knew I'd always love you, until
our time came to a close
But you stopped me before
I thought it was the end,

You showed me the other side,
it was blank too
There was no end was there?
You & I were infinite

& even though we were distant
stars, you collided into me
& through the time I did me, I waited
until our hearts collided

On repeat you played the songs
Now they were bittersweet lullabies for you
My precious world, you were born from pain
But why me?

& why did you have to suffer?