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Where is my mind?

A/N - hello, my name is Athena, I want to say that I do not care if you think I am doing this for attention or if you think the writing is emo or cringe. I really don't care. Because at this point I have had enough I am so close, so close to just crying until I throw up. Banging my head into a wall until my nose bleeds. 

ps. Have a great day

So go ahead and say what you want, and laugh all all you want. Go ahead and speak to me in that condescending tone. I know what you think of me I am stupid, and gullible, in your eyes, I will always be a maid who will listen to anything you say. I admit when we are face-to-face I am quiet, I am not assertive I am the exact opposite.

That is something... I would never have the courage to say in real life, I am too nice, too 'submissive'... 

I care too much, I can say all my feelings online, but in real life, I am just...  a nobody, in real life I can have a dramatic outburst, but they don't hear me. To them my screams are silent.

You ask why I just sit there, why I let people walk all over me...

I don't know why I just sit there I am just as confused myself. I don't know what is wrong with me I don't know why I care so much when nobody around cares.

'people cry not because they are weak but because they have been strong for too long' 

Johnny Deep.

You know sometimes when I say I am okay I want someone to look me in the eyes and hug me tight and say 'No, you are not'. Do you know what is funny? No one notices your pain or your tears, but somehow always notice your mistakes... 

314 words sorry this is my first time really writing but I hope along with time my writing becomes more extensive! 

Have an amazing day <3