why love? - newjeans oneshots

care ≠ love || danielle x female reader

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not requested
description: dani and y/n argue over their true feelings for one another
genre: angst
ps. i just wanted to write angst so idk if there's context for this story

3rd person pov

"again and again, i'm just repeating myself!" y/n yells with tears flowing down her face.

"But it's not true i'm telling you!!!" danielle shouts back.

"dani for fuck's sake i know you love her!!! I know you love her more than you love me"

"no i dont!! why should i love someone else when im with you???!!!"

"don't lie to yourself!!! stop trying to convince yourself you have the same amount of love for me and you have for her!!!"

"That isn't true! I'm always the one trying here!!! I am the one who tries fix us all the time and you keep saying i don't love you??? i want to be here with you!! I CARE for you!!!"

"AND I FUCKING LOVE YOU!!!"

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"for the two fucking years i've been with you there is not a single day her name is mentioned and you cant deny that!!! I've been holding out in lonliness because of the feelings i have for you!!!!" y/n cried out not caring about their neighbours hearing.

"SHE'S JUST A FRIEND AND YOU KNOW THAT!!!"

"THEN STOP TREATING HER LIKE YOUR GIRLFRIEND WHEN THATS WHO I SHOULD BE." y/n yelled at the top of her lungs. "EVERYDAY I WISH FOR YOU TO STAY KNOWING THAT IT WOULD TAKE YOU A SECOND TO CHOOSE HER OVER ME."

"WELL THIS ARGUMENT ISN'T MAKING ME WANT TO STAY!!"

"THEN GO!!!"

"FINE!"

silence took over the room for a couple seconds.

"you should've left me ages ago..." y/n's tone quietens as she falls to the ground. "you should have chosen her back then, danielle."

danielle doesn't say anything but turns to grab her stuff.

"go choose her danielle. i shouldn't have been selfish in the first place. you should have been with her from the the beginning."

the small sounds of danielle's footsteps shuffling in y/n's apartment replace the unbearable silence that was present beforehand.

"we'll talk properly when you're fully sober." danielle said faintly before fully leaving the room.

timeskip

"what even happened to this girl??" minji asked the shorter girl beside her as they tried to support y/n who was drunkly stumbling into her apartment.

"dani told me they got into an argument. but for her to drink this much... it must've been really bad." hanni explained whilst she walk into the aparment and closed the door behind them.

the two friends of y/n's had picked up the latter from a bar after recieving a call from a different friend of theirs who worked there. they discovered her with messed up hair, heavy eyes that were closed shut and tear stains on her cheeks.

but the weird thing was that once she saw her two friends, not a single word came out of her mouth. even during their journey home, y/n had woken up but didn't say anything.

"should you love someone who loves someone more than you?" y/n spoke after she sat down on her sofa, causing the two other girls to rush beside her.

"what do you mean y/n?" hanni asked.

"if dani loves someone more than me, should i keep loving her?" she let out in a voice that almost sounded like a whisper. "she hasn't made of move towards her cos she knows the 'rules' when you're in a relationship. but i can tell... dani looks at her the same way she looked at me when we first started dating. now, the look i recieve from dani is almost like- a look of pity, or worry or concern. it's not the same anymore." a chuckle escapes from her mouth. "she's fallen in love with somebody else even if she has me to stay in love with."

both minji and hanni were left so bewildered with the information given to them that they were left unsure about what they should respond with.

"y/n, i'm sure dani still loves you." minji said, trying to comfort her even though she knew that statement of hers wont help. "you know how much she cares about you."

" 'she cares about you' , 'i care for you!' " y/n repeated, almost in a mocking tone. "care, care, care. it's always about care and never love. she cares for me but doesn't love me. it's not the same thing. she always says how she cares for me truly but its been ages since i've heard her say she loves me." y/n proceeds to cry as her voice gradually begins to break. "and you know what?? the last time i probably even heard her say those three simple fucking words with true sincerity was a year ago. a whole fucking year!!!!! and i would just have to pretend that i would be fine with it, just for the sake of us staying together. i love danielle so much. but she doesn't love me back anymore."

"i've loved her. and i still do" she took a pause. "but isn't it all useless when her eyes have already moved to someone else??"

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idk ab this once again but good news! i think the emo phase is slowly gonna go away after this so more fluffs to come (i hope)