EMOTIONLESS LOVE.

FALLEN.

I see this new guy has caught the attention of many. Specifically girls. I heard a group of them whispering and gossiping about how good looking he is when he walked through that door with Lisa. That use to be me when I first arrived, drawing the attention of others when I just came. I enjoyed the attention. The attention never stopped though, it lasted through the whole year and of course I thought this year would be no different.

I would say I became pretty popular, head of the basketball team in less than a year, my grades though, they were questionable but somehow that didn't make the teaches dislike me. Got along with all the students and teachers and I hoped this year that wouldn't change, but I just have a bad feeling about this guy.

This new guy, Julian or JJ doesn't really matter. He had a thai latte shade of brown bleached in his dreads. Heart shaped two toned lips, a mix of a caramel brown and tulip pink. His smile when he greeted me was pearly white with a perfect row of teeth. His almond eyes creasing a little from the upward smirk. He had a stud and hoop nose piercing on either side of his nostrils. He had a fair amount of hair on his top lip which suited him surprisingly well. It irritated me how he isn't even that good looking. There has to be more to him if Lisa likes him. I dont think what I'm feeling is jealousy, I know what that feels like, but this I can't really describe it.

Monica nudges my side, it hurt but obviously I wouldn't admit it. "Why were you so mean to him?" She sighed in a irritated voice. Rolling her eyes in the process. "I wasn't being mean, you're overreacting." I sarcastically scoff rolling my eyes mocking her actions. She scoffs followed by a little chuckle. A smirk forming on both of our faces.

I've known Monica since we were 12. She always talked her shit. She would be in a fight every other day, and won almost every single one. People would assume our relationship was past only being friends but honestly it was nothing more than just a close friendship. I don't think that will ever change and I dont want it to. The friendship we have now is perfect.

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I walk down the hall to go to my room since I don't have classes for a while now. I still don't know who my roommate is since he was not there yet when I arrived. I push through the crowd of people trying to reach the stairs. I walk through a group of people standing in the upstairs hallway when I see a familiar head of dreads standing in front of my room door. He can not be my roommate... He is opening and slamming the door shut repeatedly for some odd reason. Is he fucking stupid? He is going to break the door.

I walk up to him grabbing his arm so he could stop acting stupid. "Are you dumb, you could break the fucking door." I scoff pulling his hand away from the door. "Too late for that." he chuckles not even approving a smirk from me. what did he mean by too late? I try closing the door but it would not budge. How stupid do you have to be to break the door on the first day? This was going to be my roommate for the rest of the year?

"Look lets just report the issue?" Julian blatantly sighs as he leans on the wall. "If you're willing to pay for it, we can." I reply with a slight grin on my face. I watch as his eyes widen as he immediately removes himself from the wall. "Actually, lets leave it. It wont kill us or anything." he replies his voice stern as he walks into the room. I enter after him. The plain white painted walls and beige wooden flooring boring me. I should probably decorate my side of the room and let Julian do whatever he would like to his.

I start unpacking my luggage since this is one of the only times im free for a while. Our beds were on the complete opposite of our room. I just hope we don't interact more than we need to. I finish unpacking my clothes and am too exhausted to do the rest, I mean I did come here for a nap. I look behind me to see a sleeping Julian. He looks so peaceful, how is he such a mess when he is awake? Now I could leave him to nap and nap myself or I could do something much better.

I dig into my pencil case and pull out a black marker. My impulsive thoughts get the best of me and I quietly creep towards his bed. I slowly lean over him and draw a small dot by his cheek testing if he is actually fully asleep. He did not wake up. I draw a thick pringles mustache over his real mustache. I connect his eyebrows causing a unibrow and draw an upright infinity sign on the bridge of his nose just like trippie red. Im very satisfied with my work and decide I don't need a nap anymore.

I message Monica and Lisa to see if they were free to chill. They agreed and I leave my room with a satisfied grin plastered on my face. We meet up by the benches next to the basketball court. One of my favorite places to relax and just talk. I greet them with a hug and we sit on the benches facing towards each other.

"So do you know who your roommate is?" Lisa questioned me with a wide teethy smile. I sigh loudly, smashing my face into my hands. "yeah.. I do." I groaned releasing my face from my hands. "Damn who is it? It is jerking off Jaden? Best get those earplugs now." Lisa presumed which gained a chuckle from me. "No, its not" I laugh "Its Julian." I sigh creasing my lips into a thin line. "What is your problem with him, he just arrived." Monica implored as she perked her lips. "I don't know, I just have a bad feeling about him, that's all." I respond, my voice stern. "Why, JJ is so nice and funny too, yall will get along eventually." Lisa laughed as she leaned back and layed her head on my lap, Monica laying her head on Lisa's lap.

I doubt I'll get along with him anytime soon or ever infact. I dont know what this grudge I have for him is. But it hit me as soon as I saw him walk through that door. Its was like a sucker punch to the stomach. I love giving people chances, but my brain keeps telling me no when it comes him to him and I can't explain why.

I sigh as I play around with Lisas brown braids. "Do you know if there's a way to change roommates though?" I break the silence followed by a chuckle. "David just give him a chance damn!" Lisa whined as she rolled her eyes starting to play with Monica's hair. Monica laughs as she raises her eyes to the sky. I rest my hands on the bench seat and look into the sky aswell. I think about if this stomach feeling will ever change.

David know he wrong for that 😭

SORRY FOR MISTAKES