A Royal Duty ~ Tommy Shelby~

He knows.

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He knows? How? He never even cared if I was alive.
All he cared about was if my posture was straight, if I was using the correct fork at dinner, if I wasn't speaking out of terms.
Oh no, how am I gonna tell Tommy?
He surely will see the posters or if not then he will find out by gossip or something.

"What am I gonna do, pol?" I questioned, feeling my heart goes many miles an hour

"It's alright love, let me and our Ada handle it, but for the time being, lay low for a while," she assures me while a hint of anxiety is noticeable in her voice.

" What about Tommy?" I questioned, as this man has a hold on my heart that I can't break even if I wanted to.

"Your gonna have to stay away from him aswell, I'm sorry love but if you wnat to be with Tommy, which I know you do, then your gonna have to put yourself first unless you want to be forced back to the palace"

She's right, not only to protect me, I have to protect Tommy.

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As I lay in bed, insomnia takes over, and suddenly, I'm thinking about what could happen.
Will I be found?
Will someone turn me over?
As these questions started to take over I started to think about Tommy.
I really do like him but what if he finds. I don't think he's royal material and he may never want to see again after he finds out.

I look towards the window and saw the sun slowly come up and I start to hear a car outside. I instantly heard the most familiar voices of John and Arthur.
Maybe they have some business early this morning.

I get up and creep to the window and look outside and I see Tommy approach the car and I can't help but admire him as I fear what he'll say or do when he finds out.
I can't lose him. I just hope he can't lose me.

Just as Tommy was about to get in the car he looked up and saw me. He smiled and I returned it. Oh gosh the nerves I have keep coming and going.

The more I look at him the more guilty I get. Staying away from him will be the best for everyone. For his own safety and for mine.

Please don't hate me after this Tommy. One day, you'll realise that what I have to do, I'm doing it so we can be together again.