We were always meant to be

Chapter 14

My hand hurt from writing all the notes down onto the notebook. The history teacher is a fairly quick talker. I am a bit sleepy. Woke up at like five in the morning and couldn't fall asleep. Now I am very much regretting that. Not like I was at fault. We had to write a lot which some what kept me form sleeping but it wasn't helping as well. It is also Monday. The worst day of the week. This weekend we are going to tell Iris's parents about us, her coming out to them. I am exited and nervous. Could this lesson just finally end? It was only just twenty minutes since it started. Great. I am stuck here for almost half a lesson time more.

Iris was lucky she wasn't here. She had to go to the doctor's appointment and will only appear sometime during lunch break. I missed her. We didn't text all weekend. I didn't bother to text her. But her not texting me was a bit worrying. We would usually exchange a message or two during the weekend. I have to focus on the lesson. But sleep. No school comes first. Remember you are already not good with parents, so make sure school is still going well. I am talking to myself inside my head. I am going insane. After school I am going straight home and taking a nap. Sounds good to me.

Finally the bell rang and I went to my next class, economics. Found out our teacher won't be here today. Awesome but a substitute teacher will come in. Thankfully the teacher told us to do whatever we wanted. I took out a notebook and just doodled in there for the majority duration of the class. I am not good at drawing what so ever. The humans that I drew were very funny but also reflected me and Iris. Two girls holding hands and looking at the beach. I did hide it from the eyes of others, they cannot find out. We would get bullied. I do not wish that on both of us. That lesson had ended. I did for the last minutes of the lesson just scrolled though my phone.

The next lesson and then lunch break will be, Iris would probably be at school by then. My class was math. I was not having it in this one either. The lack of sleep, well it isn't that much of a difference from my usual wake up time for school but parentally today it made a big deference. The teacher explained the new topic in a very boring way. My one eye would close up and the other one would try and following to do the same. Had to shake myself up to wake up. No one noticed thankfully. I mean I was sitting in the back of the classroom. No one here did care. I don't tend to sit in the back, usually the middle or front. The front is like almost always empty. No one really likes it. So why not occupy it. Besides many of the teacher might force a few students from the back or middle to sit closer to the front.

I want to die. I laid my head down and closed my eyes. I couldn't fall asleep in class but that was ok. Just resting my eyes was good. I did it for as long as until the teacher told me to wake up. I wasn't sleeping. I remained trying not to fall asleep, trying to listen to the teacher and write down the notes. After lunch I should get my energy up a bit. Because food. I had my lunch packed up today. It was two plain sandwiches. Nothing special. I was the one who made them and we didn't have much food choices I was to make, the ingredients that I was able to put in the sandwich.

I was very exited when the bell rang. So many students were rushing to go and eat. The cafeteria was packed. Though for now many seats were empty. As those who wanted food from the school had to wait in a line. I happily sat down in the further corner. Took out my sandwich and began to eat it. I wish I had chopped down some cucumber, so the sandwich would not have turned out so dry. It sucks. But I have to eat it as I have noting else to fill my stomach with. No sign of Iris. Weird. I went on my phone for a bit. Finished eating and decided to go and see if maybe Iris was at her locker.

To get to her locker wasn't that far off the cafeteria. I was walking slowly. I got to the corner and I heard Iris saying something but like to someone. Couldn't make out what exactly. I peaked.i regretted doing that. I saw Iris and a girl from our history class kiss. Thought it seemed to be short lived because Iris saw me.