Even If You Are Different From Me I Love You

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Today after English literature class ends, I walk through the college corridors when I hear a familiar voice.

-Look if it's not the book fanatic?- Said that voice, with a joking and sarcastic tone, I don't know where it's coming from, I look for the owner of the voice with my head, still in the same place where I mine thoughts, and my feet are stopped... and... It's Ryan, who as usual looks gorgeous! He is wearing a tight black shirt, jeans, a black all-star, and a black and white cap, he is leaning on a brown column. It had to be right?

- What are you doing here? - I ask with an air of seriousness, in a corner smile forms on his face, he must be having fun at my expense, he really loves to scare me, but he won't be able to, not for long or my name is Claire Angelle.

- You know what I like about you? - I say with a fake smile on their faces, but after all, he was the one who looked for it.- While I think a lot, you don't help much.- My joking tone and my victorious smile leave him speechless. I have to admit that every expression on his face is spectacular, it's like his face has been shaped by the God of Beauty, it's just amazing, his facial expressions, which are both funny and enigmatic, are cute. I love that, Ryan has always been such a handsome, funny, understandable, sensible boy, but on the other hand, since he was fourteen he's been so different from me, he's been a bit irresponsible, disgusting, and a kid!

I decide to turn around, but I'm stopped by my childhood best friend.

-Hey, hey, hey, why the rush?- He opens his arms to prevent me from escaping, even if I try to move forward he bars me in every way making me destabilize.

-You maybe...who knows...you want to go out with me?-he stutters, how weird Ryan never stutters while he's around me, unless around a handsome guy of course,.

- Are you asking me out?- That's also a lot, in the last three years we almost never went out together and besides just me and him, we went out together yes, but with our group of friends

-Yes! We can go to the movies, the park, anywhere...-Says without looking at me. I'm not convinced, and I don't want to go on that date either. Well, I'm already committed.

- I'm sorry Ryan, but I can't go. -His eyes transmit tears contained so as not to roll cheeks down, failure, humiliation and despair. Did he... really want me to accept?

- But... You always accepted my invitations to do things, to go for a walk... Why?- The same tone of despair, humiliation reappears, I know I'm refusing an invitation of vital importance, but I can't anymore suffer, even more so with someone who doesn't love me.

- It's just that I made an appointment to study with a guy at the library.- After answering his question I acted as if nothing bad had happened, he looks at me in astonishment, I know I'm not usually very outgoing like the other girls who are hitting on handsome boys and singles, or who are already engaged, I don't see anything wrong with being cautious and waiting for what fate writes for me.

- Wait a second. Did you "go study" with a guy? Who?-He looks desperate, I hear a tone of despair in his neutral voice.

-Yes, I made an appointment to study with a guy in my writing class.- I remain serious in my words, I turn to Ryan, he looks surprised, he knows that I don't usually ask other guys out.

-What's his name? -He looks serious, I notice his voice conveys jealousy and anger. I made someone jealous.

- His name is Felippe DeLucca, he's going to give me some advice on how to improve my writing, and think of a handsome guy.- My words seem to bother him.

- And then what are you going to do? Maybe we can have lunch together, just you and me?-He... Is... Inviting me to lunch with just me?! I didn't understand anything!