The faceless number 18 - the wild wolf and his pack

dumb things

*Lance*

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

I had just told her my name. My real name.

My heart almost stopped as I looked at her. I was sure she could see my panic.

I hadn't even meant to, but I hadn't wanted her to leave. I wanted her to stay, and I wanted her to trust me.

"Wow.", she said a little surprised and then swallowed "I didn't expect that now.".

"Neither did I.", I admitted, then something clicked in my head "Don't you dare tell anyone about this.", I growled.

She immediately shook her head "You can trust me."

"Oh yeah, tell me something about yourself that not everyone knows," I demanded.

I desperately needed to regain the upper hand, because right now I was swimming helplessly in the water and I needed something to hold onto.

"Hm.", she thought for a moment, then nodded "On my left thigh I have a scar about ten centimeters long.", she said "I never talk about it. You're one of the few who knows about it.".

I nodded and tried to breathe. The mask suddenly felt so thick. Even though I knew something about her now, it still didn't cushion the worry and panic inside me. What if she didn't shut up? With that stupid scar, I didn't have her in the palm of my hand.

She, however, held all the cards right now. She could have had everything from me if she had wanted it, just because she now knew something that nobody else knew.

I should never have told her.

"Are you okay?" she asked, looking at me with concern "Your breath doesn't sound healthy." she stated, raising an eyebrow.

"I...yeah."

"You're nervous." she whispered, her hand sliding to my jaw "I won't tell anyone. That was a big fucking leap of faith. Like I'd be stupid enough to break it." she smirked.

The warmth of her hand penetrated my skin through the fabric.

"I'll get it out if you tell someone," I growled, but my voice trembled more than I intended.

"Of course you do," she said. Her fingers slid over the fabric of the mask "But I won't tell anyone. You trust me, I trust you.", she said calmly.

"Good.", I wanted to make a comment, but didn't manage it.

I was still too panicked.

"And there's one good thing." she said, a smile slipping across her lips "I know what name to moan when we fuck." she laughed out and then broke away from me.

I stared at her in complete horror, she started laughing even louder "You're so transparent.", she turned away from me and was about to leave the room for the second time now, but I pulled her back once more.

My breathing was even faster. I pushed her against the wall right next to the shelves. My body held her there. Her heat was transferring to me.

"You want to do it right now?" she tried to sound confident, but didn't.

I pressed my hand over her eyes.

"What-," she continued, but I interrupted her.

"Shut up.", I growled, then pulled my mask down. Just enough to expose my lips.

I leaned down to her. I felt her heat on my lips.

"You've got the mask off!" she gasped.

"Shut up.", I growled, then grabbed her jaw with my free hand and let my lips brush over hers.