Breaking Barriers - Ryeji

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Ryujin's POV:

Did I feel guilty?

Yes.

Would she have been able to respond to her if I weren't in her life?

Most likely, yes.

I was curled up on the couch, viewing those words from the other's friend. They were sent at 10 am. A reasonable time. And if I hadn't sexed her up last night, both times, she would've been able to answer those texts.

It had been about 20 minutes since Yeji had been in the bathroom.

I watched as the doorknob twisted, Yeji looking as pale and frail as ever. It probably didn't help that she was already fraile. She sat next to me, "I don't like you but I need to be comforted."

I almost needed to be comforted by the girl as well to know that she didn't blame me.

But I know damn well that was probably the case.

I nodded, pulling up the ottoman to lay our legs on it. I also put pillows behind us to lay our heads on.

She finally laid down but laid her head on my chest.

I played with her hair, "Do you wanna talk about it?"

"I just feel guilty. I can't stop thinking about it," Yeji says with a sniffle.

I handed her her phone, "Someone texted you."

She opened it and was texting on her phone for a while. I didn't look because I knew it was personal. The subject hit home more than it should've.

Yeji put her phone down after a few minutes and climbed fully on top of me, only to fall asleep in my neck. I put on a movie that I could watch but made sure the volume was low so she wouldn't wake up.

Since no one will know this... it felt kind of nice to hold her and have someone cling to me. After all, in my eyes she is just a sensitive stubborn girl who just needs to be loved. And I really felt for her.

At that second, she started to shake, "Ngh.. n-no! No! Lia!" She woke up in a panic.

I quickly caressed her cheek, "H-hey, it's okay... it's okay."

She wiped her tears, "Someone please me tell me all of this is just a dream."

I pulled her down to me and played with her hair, "I wish I could, love."

Yeji cried, "Why are you so good for me yet so bad?"

I didn't know how to answer that. I just kissed her head, being very gentle with the other. I didn't want to let her out of my arms. Sometimes people get so upset about these things that they want to do things to theirselves. I didn't want that to happen to Yeji. No one would want to. Even worst enemies.

I held her back as I got up from the couch, taking her into the kitchen to set her down on a barstool, "I'm gonna make you some pancakes, okay?"

She nodded but she looked like the life was sucked out of her.

I spoke, "Did you guys get into a fight?"

She responded, "Not really... she just said something that was true about me and I didn't want to accept it, therefore I stopped talking to her."

Bitchy move. I looked back at her, just nodding. No shit, she feels guilty.

As I gathered the ingredients, I couldn't find any baking powder. "Ah shit!" I swore, mad that we didn't have any. The yell made Yeji flinch.

"W-what's wrong?!" She looked very worried.

"We don't have any baking powder," I respond.

She got up, "I can go get-"

I stopped her, "N-no... it's fine. I don't wanna leave you alone. I'll drive and you can come with me."

As I was grabbing my bag, Yeji suddenly gripped me, hugging me very tightly. I enjoyed her hugs. More than I should. It was like hugging a warm fluffy cloud. A really good scented one too. I could hold her forever if I had to.

God! Ryujin! What are you thinking?!

I sniffed her hair, my eyebrows furrowing because it was the best. I put my hands on her, never wanting to let go.

But she let go.

Yeji pulled my hair behind my ear, then tapped my bandage, "Does this still hurt?"

I shook my head fast, how could anything ache when you're looking at Hwang Yeji, a perfect sight even when pale, fraile, and what most people would call an ugly crying face.

She kissed my cheek, "Thanks for being a sweetheart, at least for right now. I really do appreciate it. She means a lot to me and I feel like the world is corrupting but you're here, stopping that. Which surprises me a lot but... thank you."

My heart fluttered.

I choked on my spit, "Mh, mhm. Anytime."

For the first time today, she gave a small chuckle.

I then took her hand, taking her to our bedroom, and brushed her hair. I then put moisturizer on her face and put one of my hoodies on her. Yeji rolled her eyes, "Are you playing Barbie?"

I got down on the floor, putting shoes on her feet, and tying them. Her flannel pajama pants even matched with the hoodie I gave her. Getting back on my feet, Yeji linked arms with me, and we left the dorm.