Let's Die Young (Skrillex FanFic)

Chapter 15

I looked at Sonny where he was singing Lustbug. I sung along.

"I said so long to your binds,
Brings me to my knees.
Brings me closer.
Hey! Hey!
In lust we play,
But we go nowhere...
Brings me to my knees
Brings me closer
Brings me closer!
And I can see right through your eyes child,
So afraid.
We are all the same inside.
Don't be ashamed..."

He sung, with his fans singing along. I haven't heard him mention this song in a while!

"Come here Nay" Sonny called for me upstage. He grabbed my hand and pulled me up. Sonny came up closer and whispered in my ear "How about you sing?" i looked at him wide-eyed.

Me? Sing?

"Looks like I'm gonna sing for you guys!" I announced in the mic. Everyone actually cheered to listen. I cleared my throat, while everyone got quiet.

"I'd give up forever to touch you
Because I know that you feel me somehow.
You're the closet to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now.
And all I can taste is this moment.
And all I can breathe is your life.
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight"

I sing in solo, Sonny then joined in.

"And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am"

Everyone cheered. Humph, honestly I thought they'd boo me off.

In the crowd I could see Joel looking at me with sad eyes, then he just left. No pleads, no begging..

He just, left.

Something inside me just wanted to save him and tell him how much I love him. Yet the other half, the seemed to be taking over, told me to leave him be.

"Everything can't be about you Joel" I whispered and let a year fall.

Apparently one tear caught everyone's attention. Sonny looked at me, with care.

"Baby, are you okay?" He asked. "Yea... Yea I'm fine.." I looked off into the distance as I saw Joel exit the big door.

~*~

As Sonny and I arrived home, the guilt pressured be. Like a million pound weight being dropped onto my shoulders.

I've got to tell Sonny.

I went over to Sonny and kissed his supple lips, and stared him in the eyes.

"Sonny I-" I was interrupted by my phone vibrating. I looked over and I got a message from Joel.

"In the next 30 seconds there won't be a Joel Thomas Zimmerman to call you his Little Shit anymore."

"Goddammit Joel!" I cursed to myself and rushed to the car, zooming down the streets of LA. I arrived at his apartment.

I was already too late.

The paramedics was there, putting Joel into a stretcher. I ran over to there and took his hand.

"Fuck Joel. I should've known" I quietly sobbed. I backed away and let them take him.

~*~

"Um, hello. My name is Nay Hines and I'm here to say some nice words about Joel. If you didn't know, I was his Little Shit. He'd always knew how to make me laugh. Joel, were my dad. My very very hipster dad. I don't know how you did it my friend, but you made it. You always told me you were gonna die before you were 40, but I thought it was gonna be drug overdose or smoking too much weed. But suicide, that's not that Joel I remember. I fucking love you, right now I just wish I could hug you, and have you scramble up my hair like old times. I wish we could play that game again where we'd put bows on Meowingtons and whoever he attacked loses. I wish that I could tell you I love you once more. I didn't even get to say goodbye... Joel, please come back, this isn't how the story ends. We could've been putting rings on Sonny's fingers and laugh when he couldn't take them off! C'mon Joel, I just want old us together once again."

I couldn't go on, the pain was too real for me to handle. What even killed me more was what we did. It definitely meant something to me.

I admit, I was in love with Joel.

Nothing would change that.

But I just loved Sonny more.

I stepped down from the podium and grabbed Sonny's hand, leading him outside.

"What happened?" Sonny asked in worry. "Remember 3 years ago when we fought and I told you Joel kept me company while we were on our 'break'?" I said in a rush.

"Please don't bring the up, can't we think of positives. Unless, are you divorcing me?" He said in shock.

"No, but I think you might want to divorce me after this" I looked down at my feet. Sonny lifted up my head and looked me in the eyes. Tears began to fall. Sonny let go of me and backed up, fury began to build in his eyes. "No, don't tell me you both-"

"Sonny, we had sex that day" I confessed. "What the actual fuck Nay!" Sonny then shook his head and walked away.

"Un-fucking-believable" Sonny threw up his hands in defeat.

"Sonny..." I whispered. "Don't go.."

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