satogou - is it love?

The Truth💔

Hello readers thank you for reading this it means a lot, if you comment I will try to get back to it! Hope you enjoy this one, also sorry if the next chapter doesn't come out soon, I have a lot of homework :)

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Goh's POV: 

As I walked I held my arm. It stung more then it had before and the bandaid I had put on it was not helping. I slowly took it of as we walked making sure that Ash didnt notice. I peeled it off exposing it to the air around us.  

I gazed at Ash. He was looking down deep in thought. I felt bad pushing him off like that so I desided to speak.

"Hey Ash, Im sorry for pushing you off like that I-I didnt mean to" I managed to studder. As my arm stung. 

"Yeah, no, its fine!" He smiled. But you could tell he didnt mean it. Pikachu hoped on Ashs shoulder reassuring.

When we got home Chloe was waiting in the doorway looking sick. "There you guys are!" She coughed "Iv been waiting for hours! Hours!! Didnt dad tell you not to go out anywere with this?" She lifted my arm quickly. I yelped pulling it back.

Ash looked at me more worried then ever. I just pushed past chloe with a quick, "Im fine." I didnt like it when people worried about me and people thinking im weak. Even thogh I was, I was like a twig. 

I went straght to my room, not eating and went  in the bathroom putting on my pagamas. I gazed over at the clock sitting on the nightstand. Half past six.

I brushed my teeth and walked to the hall where the window was and climbed out it and up the ladder. I shivered as I felt the cold air on my arms, maybe not the best day for short sleeves.

I lied down on my back not caring that there was a blanket on the other side of me. Just then Grooky climed up the ladder at the side of me. I looked up at the cloudy skyes, there wasnt a single star in sight.

I thoght about everything that happened today, prossesing it. I sighed loudly my voice hoarse at the end. I cleared my throght causing a tear strolling down my cheek I wiped it away sitting up. I hated it. How I cryed all the time. There was no need to. People go throgh way worse things and Im going to sit here and cry about nothing.

More tears came down but I stayed emotionless. I closed my eyes. Dont cry. Dont cry. Dont cry. I kept telling myself. I sighed looking up at the cloudy sky lieing back again. How can Ash be so brave? And act like its nothing?  Grooky ran up to me siting on my lap. 

I held my arm crying quietly and we fell asleep.

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Ashs POV:

I ignored Goh shoving his way and sat down to eat. "Ash?" Chloe looked at me confused. I looked up At her realizing I was mumbling to myself. I ignored her, grabbed some food and started walking to my room. 

"Ash?" I heard Chloe coming after me. "Ash!" She turned me around. "What's going on?!" She practically yelled. I started to tear up. 

"What's going on?" She repeated more softly still holding my arm. "I make everything worse" I whispered. "What?" Her voice tencened.

"I cant do anything right!" I yelled at her falling on my knees covering my eyes as I cryed. It was all my fault. I made everything worse.

She got on her knees holding my hand and grabbing me into a hug and quickly letting go. I wiped my eyes and got up. "I'm going to sleep now." I whispered turning away.

I crept toward the room quietly knocking before going in. "Goh?" I walk in but Goh wasnt there. I needed to apologize to him.

I looked around the room thoroughly and knocked on the bathroom door. "Goh?" I repeded. I opened the door but he wasnt there. 

I walked across the halls remembering the roof we went to the night before. I walked toward the window opening it softly. 

I climbed out looking at the cloudy sky I could tell it was about to rain. I carefully climbed up the ladder and saw goh. He looked so... peaceful.  

I walked over to him lying down carefully. I stared at him as he slept and put my jacket over his body so he wouldent be cold.

I could tell he wasnt having a good dream because he kept whimpering. "Goh?" I shook him softly but he just whimpered again.

I slowly moved toward him, putting my arm under his head and lying on his sholder for warmth hopeing he wouldent wake up. 

I closed my eyes thinking about today. I would make up for all of it tomarrow. To Goh and Chloe. I started to doze of planing all of it.

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Goh's POV:

I was on the Lugia with Ash, like the first day we met. "Ash!" I hugged him quickly. "I'm so sorry!" I said as I let go. "Huh" he looked confused. "Goh what's wrong, got a headache?" He smiled. 

I felt my head looking at my hand after it had... black blood on it? My arm started stinging I looked at it as the burn got brighter and spread across my whole arm. "What?" I whinced. 

His smile widened across his face and he started to grow. I looked up at him shocked. "You think, I of all people would like you? Look at me! I'm nearly the best trainer on the planet and your just you." He scoffed. 

"I-" just then the floor craked and I fell into a black room. I kneeled covering my ears. "No one would like you. Your pathetic." I heard through my hands. I broke into tears. "Dont cry" he mocked my thoghts.  "Stop" I whispered. "Go away!" I looked up angrily at him and charged but he turned he disappeared and I heard a different voice behind me.

I turned around to see.. Nick? Nick was my childhood freind and he was super popular. But lnce I told him my dreams on catching mew he managed to turn the whole school against me. It's why I dont go to school anymore.

When I looked at him my heart sunk into a bottomless pit of hatred. "Mew? That's so pathetic. " he laughed.

I tryed to yell but the pain from my arm took too much energy. "No one wants you here" He looked down at me.

The floor fell again this time glass and I put my hand to the sky as I fell not caring where I would land next but when I hit the ground I woke up with a scream.

I was sweating and crying and why was ash here?! I flushed as he woke up. I pushed him off of me as I sat in shock."Goh!" "Goh what happened?!" He quickly sat up worried. I tryed to talk but I was hyperventalating and I burst into tears falling into Ashs arms.

I lyed there breathing heavy in shock as Ash reasured me. 

"What happened?" He asked again softly. I wiped my tears away but they just kept coming. "N-nothing I-I-it was just a n-nightmare" 

He looked at me worried. "Oh Goh.. " he stroked my hair. "Can you tell me what happened?" 

I sat up straight, wiped my tears and said everything. About Nick, and the black room. I skipped the part with him though.

I thought he would laugh or make a face, but he just sat there, listining thogh the whole thing. When I was done talking I closed my eyes not wanting to see his reaction.

"Thank you for telling me" he squeezed my hand and I flushed. I stopped crying and took a deep breath before saying "thanks for listining."

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A bit of a short chapter but I hope you liked it! I'll try to make the next chapter happier lol. :)