to the stars | style

5

Cartman ended up following us all the way to the mall. We all told him to go away, but cartman being cartman, he didn't.

"Please, for the love of god, just shut the fuck up!" I begged the ball of fat sitting across from me. We were sitting the the food court in the mall and cartman was going on a rant about how much he hates Jews and Kyle.

Kyle and Kenny both not annoyed so me and cartman told them want he wanted and they got our food for us.

"Why did you leave me here with him?" I glare at them.

"Sorry, dude, you could've came with us," Kyle says. I roll my eyes and snatch my food out of his hand, obviously not actually mad.

"Is the Jew not gonna eat?" Cartman asks. I look over to Kyle to see he has no food in front of him, just a half empty bottle of water.

"Shut the fuck up, tubby." Kyle says crossing his arms over his abdomen. "Im not hungry." Cartman shrugs then starts to shove his foot long sub down his throat.

"Stop deep throating it, cartman," Kenny side eyes him. I choke on my sandwich from laughing and Kyle covers his to stifle his laughter.

"What the fuck, kinny! I'm not gay," cartman says trying to defend himself.

"Yeah, sure you aren't," I add on, "I think you're even gayer then Tweek and Craig, and they're mega gay." I laugh. Kyle bursts into laughter due to us making fun of Cartman.

"Shut up, khal! At least I didn't get used by the ex girlfriend because she didn't wanna be gay!" Cartman pointed at Kyle and I watched the gingers smile fall.

"Not cool, dude." Kenny says trying to defend Kyle.

"Like you're the one to talk, Stan. Wendy only dated you because she wanted someone to love, dickwad." Cartman says then takes another fire of his sub

"I didn't even say anything?" I defend myself and cross my arms.

"Am I the only one who has ever had a stable relationship?" Kenny asks and me and Kyle nods in his direction.

After we a finish eating, we walk around waiting for Cartman to decide which store to go into. He was debating between hot topic, to make fun of the vamp and emo kids, or, the shoe store, because his are quite literally falling apart.

"Hurry up," I tell him. "It shouldn't take you that long to decide which store to go into. We can just go into both.

"No one asked you, gaywad. I just can't decide which to go into first."

"Oh my god, just fucking decide already!" Kenny demands after finally growing impatient with him. They start bickering back and forth and attract some people to stare at us as they walk by. Kyle awkwardly waves at a couple of them and I give a cricked smile.

Cartman finally decided to go into the shoe store. I'm pretty sure it's the one Clyde's dad used to own, but sold it after Mrs. Donovan died. I feel bad for Clyde. He got blamed for his own mothers death and still is til this day.

"Finally, your feet won't be falling out of the side of your shoes whenever you walk." Kyle tells him.

"Shut up, you dirty Jew!" Cartman defends himself. I feel two pairs of eyes on us, and I turn around to be met with the same brunette from last night, and a blonde girl with shore blonde hair. Heidi turner, and Annie Knitts.

Kyle and Kenny are trying to help Cartman find a pair of sneakers he likes, since he's extremely picky and with only get certain ones.

I hear the girls whisper something to each other then laugh. I turn back around and go to help my friends.

After being there for about a hour, Cartman finds the only shoes that he would even try on, he refused to try on any other ones and just sat on a seat the whole time while we all looked for a pair for him.

He buys the shoes with his moms credit card and we all walk out. Kenny and Cartman decide to go into hot topic and me and Kyle found somewhere to sit while we wait for them to come back.

We joke around on our phones and so our snap streaks together when I see a pair of black shoes come into my vision. I look up to see Heidi again sanding in between me and Kyle. She was wearing a long brown shirt, a green cardigan, and her pink beanie.

"Hey, guys!" She waved. Annie was standing behind her with a bag in one of her hand and her phone in the other, looking down at it.

Kyle looks away from my phone and smiles at the girl.

"Hey," He answers. "What are you doing?" Heidi sits next to Kyle in the chair.

"I saw you guys in the shoe store, but I didn't wanna go over because Eric was there," She scratches her head and smiles, "I just wanted to make sure you were okay." She says to Kyle.

My heart aches when I see him blush at her. They start a conversation about whatever. I don't know what it is since I toned it out.

Then suddenly I realized. It was Heidi. It was her this whole time. My eyes start to water but try I hold it back, not wanting to cry in front of two people I barely know and my super best friend.

I sniffle and Kyle looks over at me. "You okay?" He asks

"Oh! Yeah I'm fine, just a stuffy nose." I pause for a second so my voice doesn't break. "I'm going to run to the bathroom real quick, I'll be right back.

"Ok, dude, hurry up though. I don't wanna be here with Cartman without you when he gets back.

I quickly walk away in the direction of the bathroom. I make it to a stall of the empty bathroom. It's not before I start to break down.

Why am I crying over this? It's just a stupid crush, its not like I have a chance with him or anything.

I can't stop the pained feeling in my chest, I  need to distract myself from this feeling. I feel a sharp poke from the front pocket in my jeans while I slide down the wall of the bathroom stall.

God, I hate myself.

-

I don't really know why I decided to do that in the mall... in a public bathroom. But whatever it's fine

"Kyle! What the fuck are you doing talking to Heidi! My ex!" The fat brunette yells as im walking back to where I was sitting with Kyle.

I throw myself down and look at the fight that's probably about to happen. Heidi looks at Cartman with an annoyed facial expression and rolls her eyes.

"Talking? What does it look like," Kyle replies calmly.

"It looks like your trying to get with my toxic ass hell ex girlfriend. Not cool man." Cartman says angrily while crossing his sausage arms.

"Excuse me?" Heidi sounds very mad, and she stands up, taking a step toward him and hardly poking his fat chest. "You're the one who manipulated and made just like you, also made eat meat when I'm literally a vegan! You tried to get me killed, you gaslit me into going back into a relationship with you multiple times, you even turned me against Kyle because you were jealous of us! How dare you say that." Heidi turns back around, says bye to Kyle with a smile and a wave.

Her expression turns back to a mad one then grabs Annie who was just watching with a shocked face, and pulls her away from the scene.

"Uh... I got her number?" Kyle says trying to break the tension that has been there since she walked away 5 minutes ago.

"Woohoo! You go, Kyle!" Kenny cheers, I feel jealous but smile anyway. Cartman just rolls his eyes.