My Depression And Anxiety

I've Been Thinking

I've been thinking about death lately
Like what happens when you die
Does heaven, hell, Valhalla, purgatory, a good place or bad place exist
Like actually
I've been thinking about death lately
The worst ways to die
The less worse ways to die
I don't think there's a good way
I mean, it's dying
I've been thinking about death lately
Mostly my own
I'm not gonna lie
I've thought about killing myself
Like I know that my loved ones would miss me and my dog would cry
I know I'm loved and I shouldn't feel so worthless and not good enough but
I can't help thinking those things
About death
I've been thinking about death lately
What would happen when I die
Would I be in a good place
A bad place
A medium place
Would I be reincarnated and can I be a hedgehog or service animal
I've been thinking about death lately
Every time I see a movie or tv show
When a dog or cat dies
I can't help but think about my Ozzie
When he dies will I be able to hold myself together
Will I get a new dog or maybe a cat
If so, how long do I wait
Who will I hold when I cry
Who will I hug so tightly just to feel the weight on my chest
I've been thinking about death