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𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐚𝐭

𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐚𝐭

sweat spreading across bruised skin, the moist, sticky, watery human salt making it unbearable to move under clothes without a warm, clammy squelch.

i don't know why but every time i take this medication i secrete this salty liquid more and more. im not nervous, im not sweltering hot. well maybe i am nervous always on edge because i know i can't stop it from pouring out of every crevice.

i can't stop anything, i control nothing. the medication doesn't work properly anymore but i still love it.

gurning and stiff as a board, vibrating on the spot, giddy with energy yet procrastinating every article of my life. going nowhere and knowing that in the back of my mind but it's muted with the sizzling feeling of the magical blue and grey pill.

shaking the pill, and hearing the beads flutter about inside of it. swallowing with no water then waiting for the buzz that one can never pinpoint.

it makes me extroverted and introverted. it makes me agonizingly depressed and manic. adhd is muted and heightened, muted and heightened all at the same time. i want to do nothing and everything all at the same time.

i keep these pills in a lipstick box on my bookshelf, i have one left.

all i can count on is being drenched in sweat and numb stupefaction.