5SOS IMAGINES

He Likes Your Twin More (Ashton) (⚠️TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️

*A/N Michael is gonna smoke in this*
Ashton: Age 15 (⚠️TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️)

It's been four weeks of constant working out, not eating much, and cutting. Right now I'm getting ready for a run. The boys are on tour. I run to the park and back. I've decided that today was gonna be the day I kill myself. Sabrina and Ash won't have to worry about me anymore. I get home and it's empty. I go to my room and get the notes I wrote. I put Ashton's on his bed, Sabrina's on hers, Lauren's on her bed, Harry's on his bed, and Luke's, Mikey's, and Calum's on the counter. I go to my bathroom and look at the note I'm going to have next to me.

Dear whom it may concern,
Here lies the body of a girl that gave up. She was constantly bullied, stressed out, and hurting. The people know who they are that contributed in my suicide. I hope your happy now. I'm not I'm the way now. I'll miss most of my loved ones, others I'll miss less.
Sincerely,
Y/N

I get my blade and start making cuts deeper than I have done before. I get about fifteen cuts in then my vision becomes blurry. I hear my bathroom door open and a scream. I lose consciousness after that.

Ashton's P.O.V.:

I'm on the bus with the boys when Mikey gets a call.

"She what?....... Are you sure?.......... How bad?....... She does, I'm going to kill him. Thanks Lauren," he says.
"What's wrong mate," I say.

He looks at me with hatred. He starts packing and whispers to the other boys what happened. They start packing.

"What's going on," I ask.
"If you weren't such an ass to you other sister, not Lauren or Sabrina, she wouldn't possibly be dieing right now. Because of you, she may have killed herself. Admit it. You hated her. She knew it. She told me you did. Y/N might be gone by the time we get home," he yells.

I look at him shocked. As much preaching I do about self harm, I didn't see what I caused my sister to do. That's why her wrists were constantly bandaged up. I pack my bag and I head to the airport without the boys. I need to make this right. I get the last four tickets to Sydney. The boys walk over and I give them their tickets. We go to the boarding area and I start pacing. I killed my sister is the only thing going through my head. I call Lauren.

"Hey, how is she," I ask.
"You have nerve. She left letters for me, harry, Sabrina, you and the other boys. She had this planned. Because of you and Brina. You didn't see the signs. She begged us not to tell you she cut. Four years she's been cutting Ashton. Four years," she says crying. "And the worst thing is Harry found her. I should've gone to check on her. He insisted. Oh God this is killing him. He found his sister possibly dead," she says crying and I hear Harry.

Oh God. I hear him telling Y/N to stay with him. I hang up and hit my knees.

"Y/N, I'm so sorry. Please hold on till I get there. Please. I'm sorry," I cry.

Mike comes and hugs me. I keep telling him I'm sorry while crying. Our plane gets called and we board. I sit in the chair and Mikey sits with me.

"I'm not happy with you right now. But I'm going to be there for you. So help me though, she dies, I'm done with you. I've taken care of her everytime she cut, everytime you spoke mean to her, when she felt alone. It was me and my wife. Cal even helped. Ash if she makes it through this. You need to make this right and get Sabrina in check too," he says.
"I know," I say.

Harry's P.O.V.:

I hug Lauren in the waiting room. I found my sister like that. Blood everyway. Razor blade in hand. The one I thought was strong. My best friend other than Lauren. This is Sabrina and Ashton's fault they are so mean to her. Sabrina walks in.

" How is she," she asks crying.
"Why do you care? This is your fault. It even says it in mine and Lauren's notes. You Ashton and people at school did this. I hate you Sabrina. I really do," I say not able to control my anger.
"I know it's my fault. I read the note she left me. I just wanted to be popular. I didn't see what it was costing. If I lose my twin, I don't know what I'll do. I've always felt bad after making fun of her. I just got caught up," she says breaking down.

I read her note.

Dear Brina,
Your getting your wish. My out of the way. You have the boys, Ashton, Lauren, and Harry. I hope you get as popular as you want. Good luck with everything. Even though you hate me, I love you. Good bye sis.
Love,
Y/N

I sigh and hug her. She keeps apologizing. The boys rush in and Lauren gives them their notes. Mikey has tears streaming down his face.

"I need a cigarette," he says walking out.

Michael's P.O.V.:

I had to get out of there. The one that I've helped so much, possibly gone because I wasn't there to help her. I lite a cigarette and start smoking it. I open the note she wrote for me.

Dear Mikey,
I wanna thank you for everything you and your wife have done for me. You have helped me so much. I love you like a brother. You don't understand how much you mean to me. I just couldn't do it anymore. I'm so sorry Mikey. But this is the only way I can say goodbye. Don't cry too much over me. Remember to smile and slack down on smoking.
Love,
Y/N

I can't lose her. Not now. I finish my cigarette and go back it. Ashton is talking to the doctor. I sit next to Harry and hold him. Ashton walks over.

"She's stable" he says.
"I need to see her," Harry says.

Lauren takes him to her room. I see Ashton looking at Sabrina.

"We need to talk Brina," Ashton says.
"Okay," okay she says.
They walk out and Cal hugs me.

"She's okay. She has her guardian angel," Cal say. I nod and smile a bit. She's moving in with me when she gets released. Ashton and Sabrina come back and Cal tells Ash to come to me.

*Ashton's part is to be continued. I'm sorry his is longer I just have more inspiration for his then the others rn. I hope you like it.*