Hailee Steinfeld x Y/n (female reader)

heartbreak

AN: sorry about the long AN last chapter i just had to type out my problem so that it would be off my chest at least for a little bit.

Y/'s pov

It's been a few weeks since the whole dad thing happened and since SCARLETT AND LIZZIE HAVE BEEN DATING!!! They are so cute together. I truly am happy for them, but sometimes I find myself staring at them with jealousy. Hailee has been distant more also which is weird. I'm walking to lunch when I turn the corner that leads to the stairs. My heart shatters is an understatement. "hailee?" i say barely above a whisper, but I know she heard me. "Y/n! look I can explain..." Is all I hear her say as I run away. Where? I have no idea where I am running, but I don't stop until I get to the music room. No one should be in there for two more periods. Once I get in there and shut the door. I let the tears fall. No holding back. I sit there just crying. Eventually I decide to play the piano to help me get my feelings out. I walk over and start playing.

(Dancing on my own-calum scott acoustic version)

Stilettos and broken bottles

im spinning around in circles

and im in the corner watching you kiss him

and Im right over her why cant you see me ohhh

and im giving it my all

but im not the person you're taking home ooh

I keep dancing on my own

and oh nah

So far away but still so near

the lights come on the music dies

but you don't see me standing here

I just came to say goodbye.

I finish the song and my face is red and splotchy from crying so much. I mean I guess I didn't expect her to like me, but I definitely didn't expect to see her kissing a guy. I continue playing random notes on the piano in different rhythms to pass the time and take my mind off things. I don't know how long I was sitting there when all of a sudden I hear a voice. " I didn't know you could play piano." great the one person I was trying to avoid. "look Hailee I don't care that you were kissing that dude ok? it caught me off guard and I ran to leave y'all alone. Just forget I ever saw ok? I don't care." I say grabbing my stuff and walking out the door.

Hailee's pov

"Come on I know you want this." this dude I think his name is Jack says to me while gesturing up and down his body. "I'll tell you what I tell everyone else. No I don't so leave me alone." I tell him turning the corner. All of a sudden I am pushed up against a wall and his body is pressed against me while he's kissing me. WTF?!! I can't push him off nonono god I hope no one sees this. I don't kiss him back and I repeatedly try to push him off, but he is way stronger than me. Just as I'm thinking this couldn't get any worse. The last person on Earth that I would want to see me like this. Shows up. "hailee?" I hear y/n say in a broken voice then she runs off. I push Jack off me and run after her. She goes into the music room and starts to sing a song. I stand there and listen. Her voice is so beautiful like her it's suiting. Once she stops I don't know what to say at first. After a few minutes i say, "I didn't know you could play piano." great after all the time I had to think of what to say that's what I say. I start to open my mouth to continue when she says, "look Hailee I don't care that you were kissing that dude ok? it caught me off guard and I ran to leave y'all alone. Just forget I ever saw ok? I don't care." as she walks out the door. I just stand there. Shocked. Sad. Mad. Hurt. I stay there for a little bit then decide to head to study hall. I get there and sit in my usual spot next to Florence. "Hey Hails what's up?" "Hey Flo, nothing much I basically just ruined any chance I had with Y/n that's all." Flo figured out that I have a crush on her really quick, and she's the only one who knows. "WHAT! what happened." she asks. I explain everything to her and by the time I'm done I realize I'm crying and she hugs me tight. "I can't believe she said those things...wait she thinks you're dating a guy!" She says then apologizes and runs off looking worried.

Flo's pov

(TW: mentions of ways of self-harm)

When I realize what Y/n is thinking right now I take off running and go straight to the parking lot and start my car towards Y/n's house. When I get there I see her car parked badly, so I take off running and open her door with the hidden key. I head upstairs and surprisingly her door isn't locked. I open it and see her there looking at a knife on her desk. I run over to her and hug her super tight. "I didn't do it. I couldn't bring myself to." she says then breaks into tears.

Y/n's pov

I drive home and go into my room and get my hidden knife out. I can't bring myself to do it though. I have worked so hard to get better. Even if I'm not worth it I can't put my friends and family through that again. So instead I set it down on my desk and sat on my bed just staring at it. About five minutes later Flo comes in and doesn't say anything. All she does is hug me. "I didn't do it. I couldn't bring myself to." I tell her then break into tears. After hugging for a long time Flo breaks the silence and says, "Listen Y/n I know what you're thinking right now. Hailee does not have a boyfriend and she is not talking to anybody. What you saw was Hailee being forcefully kissed by some d*ckhead who was super strong." "How do you know that she wasn't just lying to you?" I ask quietly. "Because. I know I shouldn't be telling you this, but Y/n Hailee likes you. Like, like likes you. She has turned down almost every guy in school because her heart is set on you. no one else. And right now she is hurting a lot more than you think because of what you said. I'm pretty sure she thinks you hate her guts and wish she was dead." Flo says. My eyes go wide, "I would never think those things no matter what she does." "I may know that, but she doesn't. I want you to get some sleep and talk to her tomorrow ok?" Flo asks me. "Yea ok." Flo stays until my dad is almost home then she leaves. Once she leaves I text Hailee.

(Hailee=Underlined, Y/n=Italics)

Hey, can we talk tomorrow?

Sure.

Nothing bad don't worry. I just need to tell you something see you then❤.

read 10:39 pm

I turn off my phone and go to bed not ready for the events of tomorrow to come.

AN: Not going to talk about my problems again just had to get them off my chest. Hope y'all are liking my book! I can't believe it has about 124 reads! Criticism welcome. Have a good day and/or night. ❤