ੈ✩u r a q t ⸝⸝ 𝐬𝐚𝐲𝐨𝐫𝐢 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐬𝐮𝐤𝐢

𝐜𝐥𝐢𝐜𝐡𝐞

♪
masabei (mc) left town. after sayori goes to the club meeting, she realizes her new found love for a rosy girl. or maybe, this love was always there.

sayori's pov

         
         i never thought i'd feel like this again, especially not after masabei left the town. i've known i'm attracted to girls, but, again, it was a shock. this girl, with rosy cheeks and pink hair, made me fall for her just by existing. i guess this makes me glad he left. if he hadn't left, i wouldn't have noticed her as more than a friend. natsuki, who was reading her parfait girls manga in the glistening sunlight, is my focus. i look back at the blank notebook paper.
          "staring at natsuki, eh?" monika teased, sitting on the desk in front of me, "you normally wouldn't move on this fast."
          "i was just staring off into space," i hid my face.
          "is space natsuki's new name?" monika laughed, not being to loud.
          "shh moni!" i shooed her off, starting the writing of a poem on my notebook paper in bright blue pen.
          "okay, okay!" monika walked off to go talk to yuri.
          it sucked when monika was right. she knows everything. she probably knows the government's secrets, or the fact i'm writing a poem about natsuki. i wouldn't be surprised. she knew about my sexuality before i did! i look back to the rosy girl to find her sitting in the seat next to me.
           "sayori," natsuki tried looking at the paper, "are you doing homework again?"
           "nope!" i hid the paper, "i'm trying to write a poem."
           "about masabei?" natsuki sighed, crossing her arms, "you need to move on."
           i nervously laughed, "maybe! you'll have to see monday."
           "natsuki, sayori," monika caught our attention, "club meeting is over. if your staying, lock up. if not, hurry!"
            i grabbed my bag and stuffed the ink stained paper in the pocket. i waited for natsuki, watching her every move. i must've been staring for a long time because natsuki made a weird face. i woke from my little daydream and followed yuri out the door.


             i rubbed my eyes groggily before slipping on my cow slippers. my cow onesie reeked of sleep and my hair was a matted mess. yikes, good thing it was saturday. i brushed my hair to the best of my abilities and scrubbed my teeth. the giant cow plush on my bed glowed in the morning light. it was even brighter without my glasses on. i slid my glasses on my nose and opened my phone. i had woken up earlier than usual. 7 a.m and 7 missed texts. it was from the literature group chat.

                                                                                     3:36 am

moni: guys, we should go out for lunch!!

yorriii: monika, go to bed.

moni: you're also up, yuri!!!!

cat in denial: shut up both of you!
cat in denial: some of us have lives!

moni: ugh
moni: you're no fun

                                                                                     7:19 am

sayori: guys! i agree with moni, it'd help for us to be a better club! ^^

cat in denial: or help you get over masabei
*cat in denial deleted a message*

moni: ok but why are you awake sayori?

sayori: cat woke me up

cat in denial: YOU STILL HAVE THE CAT?

sayori: yeah!! should i bring her with us?

cat in denial: UHM OBVIOUSLY SAYORI

yorriii: stop yelling.

moni: you're acting like you can hear her

yorriii: i can. she is screeching.


        i wasn't expecting the group to be awake. especially not this early on a saturday. but at least i had plans today! i looked for a place for lunch that was pet-friendly. maybe a cat cafe, or we could eat at moni's house. i heard a doorbell and the rustling of catsuki, my cat. i started booking it downstairs to open the door.
         "hi sayori," yuri was at the door with natsuki by her side.
         "yuri," i waved, letting the cat outside to greet the two, "i didn't expect you two to come here."
          "i'm here too!" natsuki acknowledged.
          "really?" i joked, "i didn't notice!"
          "i'm only three inches shorter than you," natsuki argued, "i'm not alice in wonderland!"
          i laughed, "come on inside. i was just about to make breakfast."
          "looks like we came just in time," natsuki rolled her eyes, "you can't cook for the life of you."

          once monday arrived, i was scared. the poem i had written was so obvious it was for natsuki, even when i changed the wording. i just hoped, maybe, that she was oblivious enough to believe it was about masabei.
           "okay everyone!" monika stood up at the desk she claimed, "go to your first partners."
           i stood up and walked to where monika was. we were always partners first, then i'd go to yuri, then natsuki was last. it at least gave me time to mentally prepare.
           "sayori," she whispered to me after reading the poem, "this is so obviously about natsuki."
           my face flushed, "i know! i tried changing it, but it's so obvious."
           "okay," monika handed me her poem, "well she might be oblivious enough to believe its for masabei."
           i shook my head before reading her poem silently.

           now, i had to show yuri, natsuki's best friend, my poem. she definitely would say the same thing. i watched her face flush as she read my poem. she realized it too.
           "i didn't know you liked girls!" yuri whispered, her face was a bright pink.
           "me neither," i joked to her.
           "i also didn't know you like natsuki," she whispered again, making sure only i heard.
           "you think she'll know?" i asked, my face flushing a bit.
           "definitely," she nodded.

            my inevitable doom approached as a short, rosy pink girl. she, of course, handed me her poem first.
            "honest reviews only!" she crossed her arms. she knew exactly what i was going to say.
            as i read the poem, i noticed something. yes, it was her usual cute poem, but it was a sonnet. i didn't know miss if-you-call-me-cute-sleep-with-one-eye-open had the capability of writing cute love poems.
             "its adorable, nat!" i jumped up and down, "i love love LOVE the way you portray the emotion of love." the v was exaggerated into a long sound.
              "i said honest!" she turned away, snatching my poem.
              "but i am being honest," i sped in front of her view, "its a cute poem for a cute you!"
              i teased her all the time like this. this time was no different. her face flushed, she turned away, and read the poem i made.
              "is this-" she cut herself off and handed it back to me, "nevermind. its a good poem, sayori." she took back her poem and sped off out of the classroom.
              "great job, sayori," monika teased and applauded, "you officially made natsuki so flustered, she had to leave the room!"
              i guess the hard part is over now. 
              "i'm going to go find her," yuri set down monika's poem book and walked out.
              or not.

              i got a text from natsuki this morning. she told me to meet her in the park after school. i had a mini panic attack after reading the message. i could barely focus on getting up and out of bed. i even thought about calling in sick before monika practically kicked my door down.
               "sayori, i swear to whatever god above. if you don't get up right now, i'm kicking your ass," she dragged me out of my bed and onto the carpeted floor with my phone.
               she walked out and i immediately jumped up to get ready.

               i couldn't focus in my classes. this was normal, yes, but i usually paid attention more than i am now. the message was still fresh in my brain like i had read it two seconds ago. it made me more scared than when monika made a presentation on the marvel cinematic universe. monika looked worried, yuri kept asking me if i was okay, and i didn't see natsuki at all. we don't have any classes together, but she wasn't at lunch with us. i hope she isn't mad at me, or worse.. disgusted with me.

natsuki's pov

               i was scared. i had skipped school for this. which is dumb, but i had convinced my dad that i had a bad stomach bug and to let me stay home for one day. it was difficult for me to wait for him to leave when i really wanted to sit on the swings at the park and wait. of course, as i sat on the swings, it started raining. i hadn't brought my umbrella or a raincoat, so i had to sit in the pouring rain for hours.
                "nat!" sayori was running towards me, not in school uniform, but in a blue poncho with their pink sweater, blue converse, and jeans underneath. while also holding an umbrella to their side.
                 i waved, holding the swing chain until my knuckles turned white. what if the poem wasn't about me? what if i had interpreted it the entirely wrong way? did sayori even like girls?
                 they handed me the umbrella and squeezed the air out of me, "everyone was worried!"
                 "i told yuri," i patted their back, trying to breathe, "sayori, i can't breathe."
                 "oops!" they giggled, "sorry nat. what did you need to talk about?"
                 i opened the umbrella and held it over my head, yet i was still soggy, "i- uhm. i don't know how to say this- god i practiced it and everything."
                 they tilted their head like a dog and hummed confused.
                 "i like you, sayori," i blurted out. regret settled in immediately. their eyes grew wide.
                 shit. i had ruined everything. tears fell down my cheeks as i speed walked away from the scene. i felt straight out of a movie.
                 "nat!" they chased me, "wait up, silly!"
                  i stopped. i don't know why. i didn't want to. i just felt like i should.
                  they picked me up in a giant hug again, "i like you too, suki!"
                  my face flushed, and, for once, i hugged them back.

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a/n: ugh this took too long with school n stuff sorry <3