A potato's life

drei(stigkeit)

I'm so scared of losing people.

Last night I dreamt that I was in a strange city with two of my friends (we are a group of three and they are best friends, but it kinda works) and we didn't know ourselves around. We went into a shop and I had to pay for something, and my friends said they would go outside.
But the guy I had to pay was somehow mad and he screamed at me and I was so confused because I had done nothing wrong. Anyway, he didn't take my money and then I was the one getting mad and I just left. But when I got outside, my friends were gone. I tried to find them but I got lost in the city.

So this doesn't sound that bad, but I really felt lost and sad, and they always do that in school: they wait for each other and I always wait fir them, too, but they rarely wait for me. They just go and I have to catch up. Like we are very good friends but sometimes they seem to forget about me when they talk to one another and then they just leave without me.
Plus, I'm someone who gives very much love, because I always want to make sure that the people I like know that I do. I might be a bit annoying because of it, but I can't help it. And the problem is that I often give more love than I receive.