dear my first love ; kim gyuvin, zerobaseone

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a/n : hi guys so basically as you can tell the whole love line between gyuvin and nari is escalating very fast, i just wanted to clarify the sort of 'rush' i guess between the two falling in love- there's a reason for it because there will be some time where the two won't be together😭 KIND OF SPOILER ALERT SORRY GUYS😭😭😭

nari pov

i got out of the shower, patting my hair down with my towel, sitting down on my bed. but then i suddenly flopped onto my bed, screaming into my bed. FOR GODS SAKE my little small lie is becoming one huge one, just to hide the fact that the letter wasn't for gyuvin but for gunwook. i should of just told the truth from the start.

the kiss from earlier kept replaying in my head, why was i so into it? i literally wrapped my arms around his neck. and how did i even think about kissing him as an answer to his question. what was wrong with me?

one hour ago
he was about to leave but i pulled the front part of his hoodie with strength towards me, causing him to lean towards me, and my lips touched him, as i gave him a quick peck on his lips.

"does that answer your que-" i tried to ask, but gyuvin's lips touched mine again, but this time our lips didn't part, his body was closer to mine and his hands began to grasp onto my waist.

but for some reason, i didn't want the kiss to end, i wanted it to become a more passionate kiss, a more longer one. without me knowing, my arms made their way to wrap around his neck, and instead of that feeling that the kiss from earlier was wrong, i started to enjoy the kiss, feeling the butterflies in my stomach prancing around.

but, my petty lie that i started was really annoying me, i shouldn't have lied, i shouldn't have kissed him in the first place, so i quickly pulled away from the kiss, removing my arms from his neck and placing them in front of me, my head titled down.

"i'm sorry." i muttered, whilst blushing

"nari.. can we date for real this time?" gyuvin asked me, while crouching down again to match with my height, whilst giving me the puppy eyes.

"i'll treat you really well..." gyuvin carried on while he suddenly grasped onto my hand.

his sudden request had tooken me aback, he probably asked though since i had kissed him, and there was no escape from the situation, i didn't want to lie any further and pretend i actually was fully in love with gyuvin, but i really didn't want to hurt his feelings. he gave me the puppy eyes, and was grasping onto my hand, his hand was huge though, but it made me feel kind of safe.

i paused for a few seconds and i simply just nodded, i couldn't bring myself to say no.

however, i felt him start to embrace me, his arms wrapped tightly around my back, his face gently laying on my shoulder. the feeling of safety was strong again, as he hugged me.

end of flashback

i tossed and turned in my bed, facing now upwards with my back now laying on my bed, staring at my ceiling.

why can't i seem to stop thinking about that kiss. the moment he put his hands on my waist, my heart felt weird, and when he hugged me tightly i felt safe. and when he looked at me with his eyes, i feel weak.

do i perhaps have a crush on him?

but, i was all about gunwook two weeks ago, is it even possible to have a change of heart that quick?