" I'm.. too weird? "

6 || The Friend saved My Life ||

TW attempts of suicide/blood

[ Rui's POV ]
I was at my house alone
A LOT of thoughts were going in and out of my head,

"Am I a bad friend?"

"Do I always act very weird?"

"Why did Tsukasa hugged me then?"

"Was he feeling bad for me?"

I couldn't answer any of them
So i stood very stupidly in my kitchen
I was cutting some cheese
I just was hungry and i was way too lazy to cook something normal
Some cheese grilled sandwiches would be good

Holding a knife there was two thoughts in my head

"Should i do it"

"Or not"

After some thinking
It was decided. I was going to do it
There was no one to save me
So this one would be permanent
Well, i thought so..
"
I was already pointing with a knife to my stomach. I didn't want to do it but it was simply the only way
to get rid of the problems
As I was focusing where it will be better and already trying,
I heard someone opening the door. By the voice it was Tsukasa
I think he came back for his scarf

[ Tsukasa's POV ]
When i was home playing some games,
I realized that i forgot my scarf at Rui's place
So i headed there
I was going to just come there quietly so Rui doesn't
even notice that i was there
But, when i came to the house and opened the door
I saw Rui with a knife, pointing to his stomach
Did he want to kill himself?!
So i yelled,
" RUI, WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! " i was running to him
It was perfect timing
Right before he stubbed himself, i was able to take the knife away. What CAUSED him wanting to kill him self?

[ "Tsukasa", Rui ]

" Rui, what are you doing?! " i was in shock. Holding a knife very tightly, i continued
" Why do you want to kill your self? Why, Rui " I was very confused and Rui was smiling. This is too weird.
" What happened?.. " i asked. Rui was still standing there, not moving.
Finally he talked in a flat tone which could make Mafuyu jealous.
"Maybe, because I AM A FCKING WEIRDO WHICH GOT FCKING DUNKED ON BY HIS TROUPE MEMBERS?!"
His tone, made me shake
And.. he did hear what we said yesterday. That explains everything
"Look, i can expla-" i got interrupted by Rui
" get out " he said, I ignored him
" GET OUT " he repeated,
Gosh, he is scary when yelling
It was the last drop for me, i started yelling too. I had more powerful voice so,
" RUI, CAN YOU FINALLY UNDERSTAND THAT I ONLY AGREED TO NENE, OKAY?!" I shouted very annoyed
" IT DOESN'T MEAN THAT ITS TRUE. I THINK YOUR IDEAS ARE GOOD" it was true, even if sometimes dangerous
" And I love you, how many times i have to tell you that" i said with a normal tone "i will always be on your side"
Then, Rui hugged me. It was very strange
Just a second ago he wanted me to die
And now, we are back as it was.

I had to stay with Rui that day, because i could't leave him alone, attempting another suicide

Damn, this chapter is SO violent
Holy cow
I just didn't have anything else in mind
But the next one will be okay 👌
At least i think so

Anyways, see ya in the next chapter :) 💗