Its been a few week after my boyfriend also known as notti died tomorrow make it a month since he died
I plan on visiting his grave today and tomorrow, as of right now im laying in bed watching old videos of us before he died
And lemme tell yall these videos are so funny, it has me reminiscing about all the good times but now its time to get up and get changed
Outfit, hair, and nails

After i got changed i started my walk to the cemetary
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I just got to the cemetary and now i started my walk to his head stone and i also brought blue and white roses so i took out the old roses and replaced it with the new roses
I started talking saying how i missed him and then i went back to the day of how i figured out he died
The day he died
I was laying down in bed all happy because my boyfriend ethan was coming to see me until all of the sudden my phone starts blowing up with notifications until i take a look at one if them and see
"14 year old drill rapper notti osama also known as ethan reyes is dead, he was pronounced dead at the hospitial, i send all my condelences to his family and girlfriend"
It was in the bews and everything so i called dd and them to see if it was true and all i heard through the phone was his cries and that when i knew it was all true i hanged up the phone and started to cry
I stayed im my room the whole time i couldnt even bring my self to go to his funeral, i wasnt eating, i wasnt getting enough sleep all i ever did was smoke blunt after blunt until i passed out and i did that all over again
If i just went to his house instead if having him come to my house he wouldnt have died, this is all my fault
I got knocked out my thoughts when i heard rustling in the woods and when i looked i saw a figure looking at me and when i saw it, it started to run away
After that i went homw and got ready for bed.
The next day
I went to visit his grave againg today since it makes a month today, so i got ready
The oufit, hair, and nails

Now i was ready to go and visit him, but the whole time i was walking to the cemetary and his grave i felt someone was watching me the whole time
It gave me a good but bad and weird uneasy feeling, i got knocked out my thoughts when i arrived to his grave and
I started talking about how life was without him, and how hard it has gotten since he left
A few hours later and i decided to leave, amd i felt the same uneasy feeling as earlier, once i make it home, i get ready for bed when
All the sudden i see the same figure as the other day and it, come into my room from the window, and it was...
Notti but how i thought he was dead, i had all these thoughts running through my head, i got knocked out my thoughts by when he said
"Miss me ma." Thats when all the waterworks all started again, he came over to me and i just said "i thought you were dead, i miss you so much, but how they even burried you." He said "your right you have to forget me and move on ma this is the last time youll see or hear me, i am dead your just have a hallucination wake up"
after that i snapped out of it and woke up i was in a hospital bed with dd, ddot, and all of them next to my bed " what happend" was all i could get out and al of their head snapped up so quick "are you ok" dd asked first, " im just fine why?" I asked him back
"Y/n wake up your in a dream" " wake up" was all i heard and i woke up and i was awake around all the people i love, and even notti was still alive "i just had the craziest nightmare ever" was all i said.
