basically my most recent obsession has been reserching autism as my friend who we have now decided we call Jewel asked me to before she goes for another test
and what ive found is
altho many symptops match her
lots of them also match me.
i look at the majority of these things and say "isnt that something everyone does?"
spoiler alert: it usually is in fact not something everyone does
i notice more of what i usually do
walking on my toes
shaking my hands
holding my arms like a t-rex
etc..
and aparently the things i usually do are autistic traits
altho obviously they could have nothing to do with autism
a piece of information i have found upon research is shown below:
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"Commonly shown in autism is messy handwriting. Autistic people may take handwriting classes, but it usually hurts their hand to write if they do."
not my wording, the words of a website.
and that made me reflect on my past:
if i was not pressured and bullied and forced by teachers and peers to write as i write now my handwriting would probably look similar to that of the picture.
of course this is something i cannot confirm.
if anyone is reading this
if anyone can help
it would be greatly appreciated
even if you cant, thank you for taking time out of your busy day to read this.
