What if I just killed myself.
What would happen?
Would the sadness go away?
Would anybody cry?
Would people remember me?
Would they know my name
Or just the name they gave me?
Would they remember me as the person I was
Or the person they wanted me to be?
What about my friends
Would they really care?
I'm just a secondary character anyways
When has the death if a secondary character ever really messed with the storyline...
I'm stuck in a circle brain
With square thoughts.
I can only be me
If I'm no longer in this body
Then I can let go and feel free.
I don't want to be a person anymore.
I'm tired.
Tired of trying to be a person.
I'm tired.
Day by day
I feel less like me
Less like a human being
Day by day
I get worse and worse and worse
At being a person
That is worth living on this earth.
Day by day
I struggle to communicate
I will never fit in
I should just
Give up.
Day by day
I get overwhelmed by little things
People call them "luxury problems"
But I am trying
I really am.
I am struggling.
I just wish I could be like other people
That do everything with ease
That are able to talk to others
Without having to push themselves to do it.
Sometimes I'd rather not say anything at all.
But I guess it all doesn't really matter
It's all just my "luxury problems".
Thanks, mom.
Thanks alot...
What if my brain was just like everybody else's
Everything would be easier
I would function like a person
I would communicate like a human being
I would understand and be understood...
I just want someone to understand.
I just want someone to care.
